{"id":2266,"date":"2023-01-30T22:56:23","date_gmt":"2023-01-30T22:56:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/?p=2266"},"modified":"2023-01-30T22:56:23","modified_gmt":"2023-01-30T22:56:23","slug":"urtina-hoxha","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/urtina-hoxha\/","title":{"rendered":"Urtina Hoxha"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>[vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]<!--[if lt IE 9]><script>document.createElement('audio');<\/script><![endif]-->\n<audio class=\"wp-audio-shortcode\" id=\"audio-2266-1\" preload=\"none\" style=\"width: 100%;\" controls=\"controls\"><source type=\"audio\/mpeg\" src=\"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/01\/Urtina-Hoxha.mp3?_=1\" \/><a href=\"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/01\/Urtina-Hoxha.mp3\">https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/01\/Urtina-Hoxha.mp3<\/a><\/audio>[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]Intervistuesja: Faleminderit shum\u00eb Urtin\u00eb. A po e fillojna pak me m\u00eb kall\u00ebzu qysh e ka marr\u00eb vendimin familja p\u00ebr me dal? Ku je kan\u00eb? Qysh e mban mend pak at\u00eb periudh\u00eb kohore?<br \/>\nUrtina Hoxha: Po. Na kemi jetu n\u00eb Suharek\u00eb, me nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi qeshtu dy kat. Ka qen\u00eb nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi goxha e madhe. N\u00eb vitin 1998, n\u00eb korrik lufta dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, n\u00eb rajonin ton\u00eb ka nis me u bo pak m\u00eb e ashp\u00ebr. Edhe n\u00eb korrik dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, n\u00eb Rahovec ka ndodh\u00eb nj\u00eb masak\u00ebr. N\u00eb at\u00eb moment familjar\u00ebt e mi mo nuk jan\u00eb ndij\u00eb t\u00eb sigurt, nuk jan\u00eb ndij\u00eb rehat me ndejt n\u00eb Suharek\u00eb. P\u00ebr shkak q\u00eb ka qen\u00eb tep\u00ebr af\u00ebr me lokacion Rahoveci. Edhe na e kemi pas \u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb nj\u00eb hall\u00eb q\u00eb ka jetu n\u00eb Lezh\u00eb edhe ajo na ka th\u00ebn\u00eb: un\u00eb kam hap\u00ebsir\u00eb, ju mundeni me ardh\u00eb te na. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, mos rrezikoni, mos rrini n\u00eb Suharek\u00eb. Edhe prej korrikut deri n\u00eb fillim t\u00eb gushtit, familjar\u00ebt e mi ve\u00e7 jan\u00eb marr\u00eb me dokumente, i kan\u00eb bo gati pasaportat. E di q\u00eb edhe un\u00eb e kam bo pasaport\u00ebn p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb ndoshta at\u00eb her\u00eb. Edhe&#8230; po dikush prej familjes nuk ka mund me pas, nuk ka mund me e bo pasaport\u00ebn. Nuk e di, m\u00eb duket ka qen\u00eb shum\u00eb e vog\u00ebl, nuk e di arsyen e sakt\u00eb por, me r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi \u00ebsht\u00eb q\u00eb ajo nuk ka pas pasaport\u00eb. Edhe&#8230; dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, na kemi jetu n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, un\u00eb e mami, v\u00ebllau, motra. Por, kemi jetu me gjyshin, gjyshen. Kan\u00eb jetu edhe tre axhallar\u00ebt e mi plus dy hallat. Tash, tre axhallar\u00ebt e mi, po i bjen babi edhe dy t\u00eb tjer\u00eb, kan\u00eb qen\u00eb t\u00eb martuar q\u00eb kan\u00eb pas f\u00ebmij\u00eb. Nj\u00eb axh\u00eb ka pas tre djem, axha tjet\u00ebr dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, m\u00eb duket e ka pas ve\u00e7 nj\u00eb \u00e7ik\u00eb, po. Edhe hallat e mija q\u00eb kan\u00eb qen\u00eb t\u00eb pa martuara n\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb, plus edhe axha tjet\u00ebr q\u00eb ka qen\u00eb i pa martuar. Dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, kemi qen\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb familje goxha shum\u00eb e madhe edhe shumica prej tyre ve\u00e7 jan\u00eb pjes\u00eb e k\u00ebsaj historis\u00eb q\u00eb kam me e tregu qetash. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, n\u00eb gusht t\u00eb 98-s\u00eb, p\u00ebr shkak q\u00eb s&#8217;kan\u00eb mund me shku rrug\u00ebs s\u00eb drejt&#8230;<br \/>\nIntervistuesja: Po, kem tu fol p\u00ebr gushtin.<br \/>\nUrtina Hoxha: Po, edhe tash n\u00eb gusht t\u00eb 98-s\u00eb, p\u00ebr shkak t\u00eb munges\u00ebs t\u00eb asaj pasaport\u00ebs q\u00eb po flas. Nuk ka qen\u00eb opsioni me shku kah Prizreni q\u00eb prej Suharek\u00ebs \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb af\u00ebr nj\u00eb or\u00eb e di\u00e7ka, edhe me tejkalu dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, kufirin p\u00ebr Shqip\u00ebri. P\u00ebr shkak se, ka pas probleme dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, familjar\u00ebt e mi tregojn\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00ebse s&#8217;ka pas dikush pasaport\u00eb prej Kosov\u00ebs n\u00eb Shqip\u00ebri at\u00ebher\u00eb, i kan\u00eb bo goxha shum\u00eb probleme. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, ata e kan\u00eb zgjedh\u00eb nj\u00eb rrug\u00eb alternative q\u00eb nuk u kan\u00eb&#8230; nuk u kan\u00eb legale, dometh\u00ebn\u00eb ilegale. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, prej Suharek\u00ebs ata kan\u00eb shku n\u00eb Brezovic\u00eb. Mandej, prej Brezovic\u00ebs kan\u00eb shku kan\u00eb dal n\u00eb Mal t\u00eb Zi n\u00eb Ulqin dikah, Mandej, n\u00eb Ulqin kan\u00eb ndenjt\u00eb nj\u00eb dit\u00eb ose dy dit\u00eb edhe mami tregon q\u00eb kan\u00eb bo plazh edhe kan\u00eb kalu goxha mir\u00eb n\u00eb Ulqin. Mandej, p\u00ebr me shku n\u00eb Shqip\u00ebri prej Malit t\u00eb Zi, ata \u00ebsht\u00eb dasht\u00eb me tejkalu Bun\u00ebn. E qetu ka qen\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, qajo pak m\u00eb rrezik edhe na vet nuk kemi mund me tejkalu. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, ata kan\u00eb pagu njer\u00ebz q\u00eb me bo k\u00ebt\u00eb udh\u00ebtim sa m\u00eb t\u00eb sigurt q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb e mundur. Edhe te Buna \u00ebsht\u00eb memoria jem. Nd\u00ebr memoriet e pakta q\u00eb i kam, se un\u00eb kam qen\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, tri vjet e gjysm\u00eb kur ka ndodh\u00eb kjo histori. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, te Buna \u00ebsht\u00eb nd\u00ebr memoriet e mija t\u00eb para edhe t\u00eb pakta q\u00eb i kam. E mbaj mend q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb dasht\u00eb me kan\u00eb shum\u00eb terr p\u00ebr me tejkalu Bun\u00ebn se ka pas kontrolla, ka pas asi drita p\u00ebr me e kontrollu at\u00eb hap\u00ebsir\u00eb, at\u00eb zon\u00eb. E na kemi hyp me nj\u00eb bark\u00eb q\u00eb u kan\u00eb vark\u00eb tep\u00ebr e vog\u00ebl. E na jemi kan\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, shum\u00eb njer\u00ebz. Po m\u00eb duket prej&#8230; ka qen\u00eb ve\u00e7 axha edhe kan\u00eb qen\u00eb si me th\u00ebn\u00eb, mami me tre f\u00ebmij\u00ebt edhe un\u00eb. Ka qen\u00eb gruaja e xhaxhit me tre f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e vet. Dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, ka pas shum\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb e gra n\u00eb at\u00eb vark\u00eb. Edhe tash, ata t\u00ebr\u00eb koh\u00ebn na kan\u00eb th\u00ebn\u00eb q\u00eb na nuk duhet me fol, duhet me kan\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u00eb qet\u00eb. \u00cbsht\u00eb dasht\u00eb me ec\u00eb k\u00ebshtu n\u00eb nivele tep\u00ebr t\u00eb ulta mos me u qu n\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00eb se kan\u00eb mund ato far dritat me na kap, me na pa. E tash, kur kemi hyp n\u00eb vark\u00eb na jemi&#8230; xhaxhi ka qen\u00eb njeriu i fundit q\u00eb ka hyp, ai \u00ebsht\u00eb i madh me trup, ka qen\u00eb m\u00eb i plot. Edhe kur ka hyp n\u00eb vark\u00eb e di q\u00eb e ka disbalanc\u00eb vark\u00ebn edhe e di q\u00eb jam tut shum\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb moment se kena&#8230; kam m\u00ebndu q\u00eb kena me u praptu. Edhe qajo e mbaj\u00eb mend at\u00eb far\u00eb frik\u00ebn edhe mamin gjith\u00eb kur t\u00eb fol\u00ebt p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb storie dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, gjith\u00eb tregon q\u00eb&#8230; garant e kam p\u00ebrqaf\u00eb ose di\u00e7ka q\u00eb me m\u00eb bo mu me u ndij\u00eb m\u00eb rehat. Mas k\u00ebsaj pike dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, na e kemi tejkalu Bun\u00ebn, ok s&#8217;di qysh por, gjith\u00e7ka ka shku ok. Ata njer\u00ebzit q\u00eb na kan\u00eb p\u00ebrcjell\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, kan\u00eb pas me na d\u00ebrgu prej Bun\u00ebs me tejkalu kufirin e Shqip\u00ebris\u00eb me na qit dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, n\u00eb kufi&#8230; n\u00eb Shqip\u00ebri tamam e mandej, ka pas me ardh\u00eb dikush tjet\u00ebr me na prit. Un\u00eb prej k\u00ebsaj pjese nuk kam edhe nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb q\u00eb fol\u00ebt p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb pjes\u00eb. Ka shku dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, gjith\u00e7ka ok qysh e kan\u00eb paramendu. Por, ka ora dhjet\u00eb, nj\u00ebmb\u00ebdhjet\u00eb e nat\u00ebs, na ve\u00e7 jemi kan\u00eb n\u00eb mes t\u00eb Shkodr\u00ebs edhe Lezh\u00ebs. Edhe jemi kan\u00eb t\u00eb ndar\u00eb n\u00eb dy makina. N\u00eb fakt nj\u00eb&#8230; un\u00eb, mami, v\u00ebllai im Shpendi, halla kemi qen\u00eb me nj\u00eb makin\u00eb t\u00eb vog\u00ebl. P\u00ebrpara ka qen\u00eb nj\u00eb shofer q\u00eb e kan\u00eb pagu familja jem dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, me na prit masi q\u00eb e kemi tejkalu kufirin. Plus ka qen\u00eb edhe nj\u00eb p\u00ebrcjell\u00ebs tjet\u00ebr. Dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, familja jem i kan\u00eb marr\u00eb masat m\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdhaja t\u00eb mundshme q\u00eb komplet qeky udh\u00ebtim me qen\u00eb tep\u00ebr i sigurt. Dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, n\u00eb secil\u00ebn pik\u00eb u kan\u00eb dikush q\u00eb na ka prit. Ka pas me na prit me na qu prej nj\u00eb pike n\u00eb pik\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr. Por, ajo nuk ka ndodh\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, udh\u00ebtimi si rezultat nuk ka qen\u00eb i sigurt. Mandej, n\u00eb makin\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr, ka qen\u00eb kombi, aty ka pas shum\u00eb njer\u00ebz. Dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, kan\u00eb qen\u00eb motra jem, tre f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e xhaxhit, gruaja e xhaxhit tjet\u00ebr q\u00eb e ka pas nj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb duket asnj\u00eb&#8230; nj\u00eb vit ndoshta i ka pas dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, ka qen\u00eb bebe tep\u00ebr e vog\u00ebl. Hallat&#8230; ka pas dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, shum\u00eb njer\u00ebz, plus ata njer\u00ebzit q\u00eb na kan\u00eb p\u00ebrcjell\u00eb. Tash, \u00e7ka ka ndodh\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb q\u00eb n\u00eb Torovic\u00eb me nj\u00eb vend n\u00eb mes t\u00eb malit, n\u00eb mes t\u00eb Shkodr\u00ebs edhe Lezh\u00ebs. N\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, Shqip\u00ebria ka qen\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb tranzicioni, nj\u00ebfar\u00eb gjendje t\u00eb \u00e7uditshme. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, ka pas shum\u00eb njer\u00ebz q\u00eb kan\u00eb dal me prit dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, kan\u00eb pas&#8230; i kan\u00eb ndal\u00eb makinat&#8230;<br \/>\nIntervistuesja: Pla\u00e7kitje.<br \/>\nUrtina Hoxha: &#8230; i kan\u00eb grabit, i kan\u00eb pla\u00e7kit\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, e qeky send na ka ndodh\u00eb edhe neve ve\u00e7se dallimi u kan\u00eb q\u00eb para se me mb\u00ebrri na, ata ve\u00e7 e kan\u00eb ndal\u00eb nj\u00eb autobus edhe e kan\u00eb pla\u00e7kit at\u00eb autobus dometh\u00ebn\u00eb. Po, nuk e di sakt\u00eb qekjo pjes\u00eb, as prindt\u00eb e mi nuk e&#8230; ndoshta e din\u00eb po qysh ma kan\u00eb tregu mu nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb e qart\u00eb. Ose ata e kan\u00eb dit\u00eb q\u00eb po vjen policia ose jan\u00eb kan\u00eb&#8230; me nj\u00eb far\u00eb m\u00ebnyre jan\u00eb ndje n\u00eb rrezik p\u00ebr veten dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, se e kan\u00eb dit\u00eb q\u00eb dikush i ka lajm\u00ebru edhe policia u kan\u00eb tu ardh\u00eb. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, kur i kan\u00eb ndal\u00eb makinat e familjes tem ata dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, nuk i kan\u00eb grabit, nuk i kan\u00eb pla\u00e7kit po mendoj por, ve\u00e7 kan\u00eb gjujt me arm\u00eb drejt makinave tona. Kan\u00eb pas k\u00ebsi arm\u00eb pak m\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdhaja, automat\u00eb ose di\u00e7ka edhe ve\u00e7 kan\u00eb gjuajt pa u ndal\u00eb. Por, shoferat edhe nj\u00eb her\u00eb q\u00eb jan\u00eb kan\u00eb tu i vozit\u00eb makinat nuk jan\u00eb ndal\u00eb ve\u00e7 kan\u00eb ec\u00eb edhe pse ata ve\u00e7 kan\u00eb vazhdu me gjujt. Por, mandej me nj\u00eb pik\u00eb kur jan\u00eb kan\u00eb \u201csafe\u201d dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, ku jan\u00eb ndje t\u00eb sigurt jan\u00eb dal edhe e kan\u00eb kuptu n\u00eb at\u00eb&#8230; dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, \u00e7ka ka ndodh\u00eb p\u00ebrnime. Te vetura ku jam kan\u00eb un\u00eb, te makina ku jam kan\u00eb un\u00eb, jam un\u00eb e plagosur. Jam e plagosur n\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00ebn e majt\u00eb&#8230; jo n\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00ebn e djath\u00eb. Ndoshta, n\u00eb vetur\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr \u00ebsht\u00eb djali i xhaxhit q\u00eb ka pas tet\u00eb vjet e gjysm\u00eb ose n\u00ebnt\u00eb, ai ka mbet i vdekur. \u00cbsht\u00eb i vram\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, n\u00eb vend. E di q\u00eb ai \u00ebsht\u00eb i vrar\u00eb, ka pas plumba n\u00eb kok\u00eb k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, kur u ndal\u00eb makina ai ve\u00e7 ka qen\u00eb i vdekur. Edhe nana e t\u00eb nj\u00ebjtit dometh\u00ebn\u00eb e atij djalit, gruaja e xhaxhit tem \u00ebsht\u00eb e plagosur n\u00eb an\u00ebn e majt\u00eb af\u00ebr dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, af\u00ebr gjoksit, af\u00ebr shum\u00eb zemr\u00ebs. Dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, kan\u00eb qen\u00eb tre viktima prej k\u00ebtij incidenti. Por, un\u00eb jam rasti m\u00eb i leht\u00eb i k\u00ebtyre tri viktimave. Edhe bile n\u00eb fillim as nuk e kan\u00eb v\u00ebrejt q\u00eb un\u00eb jam e plagosur. Se jam kan\u00eb e veshur me \u00e7ka po di, do pantolla t\u00eb kuqe ose do hallehopke t\u00eb kuqe edhe nuk e kan\u00eb pa as q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb tu m\u00eb dal gjak ose kurgjo. E di q\u00eb mami e ka pas v\u00ebllaun n\u00eb gjoks k\u00ebshtu n\u00eb trup, edhe e ka pa q\u00eb ka pas&#8230; \u00ebsht\u00eb&#8230; u kan\u00eb i prem\u00eb, i qam\u00eb se kur kan\u00eb gjujt&#8230;<br \/>\nIntervistuesja: I kan\u00eb thy xhamat.<br \/>\nUrtina Hoxha: &#8230; i kan\u00eb thy xhamat edhe xhamat na kan\u00eb ra neve p\u00ebrmbi trup edhe tani jan\u00eb pre. Mandej, me nj\u00eb moment&#8230; m\u00eb fal, se mu ka tha pak fyti.<br \/>\nIntervistuesja: Mandej, keni vazhdu n\u00eb spital?<br \/>\nUrtina Hoxha: Po, ve\u00e7 me nj\u00eb moment un\u00eb i kam th\u00ebn\u00eb mamit q\u00eb po m\u00eb dhemb k\u00ebmba. Edhe e kan\u00eb pa q\u00eb un\u00eb jam&#8230; kam plag\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00eb. E mandej, kemi vazhdu n\u00eb spitalin e Lezh\u00ebs por, p\u00ebr shkak q\u00eb ka qen\u00eb von\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, garant u kan\u00eb ora 11 e di\u00e7ka, edhe spitali ka pas shum\u00eb pak njer\u00ebz, ka pas shum\u00eb pak mjek, ka pas shum\u00eb pak mjete. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, ka qen\u00eb gjendja jo shum\u00eb e mir\u00eb. Pjesa tjet\u00ebr e familjes kan\u00eb vazhdu n\u00eb Lezh\u00eb, njer\u00ebzit q\u00eb nuk kan\u00eb qen\u00eb fizikisht t\u00eb l\u00ebnduar, kan\u00eb vazhdu n\u00eb Lezh\u00eb te halla. Nd\u00ebrsa, na q\u00eb kemi qen\u00eb t\u00eb l\u00ebnduar fizikisht, plus mami im q\u00eb nuk ka dasht\u00eb me na l\u00ebn\u00eb vet, kena vazhdu dometh\u00ebn\u00eb n\u00eb spitalin e Lezh\u00ebs. Ata fillimisht nuk jan\u00eb marr me mu p\u00ebr shkak q\u00eb un\u00eb jam kan\u00eb prej l\u00ebndimeve m\u00eb t\u00eb lehta. Gruaja e xhaxhit dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, ka l\u00ebndime shum\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdhaja edhe ka humb\u00eb shum\u00eb gjak prej vendit ku ka ndodh\u00eb derisa ka shku n\u00eb spital. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, ata jan\u00eb marr m\u00eb shum\u00eb me t\u00eb e tek mandej, jan\u00eb marr me mu. Po ka qen\u00eb nj\u00eb moment q\u00eb e mbaj mend un\u00eb, ku \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb moment pak m\u00eb i v\u00ebshtir\u00eb. Se e mbaj mend, nuk e di ndoshta&#8230; masi q\u00eb ka ndodh\u00eb&#8230;<br \/>\nIntervistuesja: Gjuajtja.<br \/>\nUrtina Hoxha: &#8230; po masi q\u00eb ka ndodh\u00eb gjuajtja, pjes\u00eb&#8230; pjes\u00ebtar\u00ebt e familjes tem q\u00eb nuk kan\u00eb qen\u00eb t\u00eb l\u00ebnduar fizikisht kan\u00eb vazhdu kan\u00eb shku n\u00eb Lezh\u00eb te halla jem. E na q\u00eb kemi qen\u00eb t\u00eb l\u00ebnduar fizikisht kena shku te spitali i Lezh\u00ebs. Mami jem ka qen\u00eb me neve, edhe n\u00eb spital e kam memorien dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, nd\u00ebr memoriet e mija t\u00eb para, p\u00ebr shkak q\u00eb un\u00eb kam qen\u00eb m\u00eb leht\u00eb e l\u00ebnduar. Ata nuk jan\u00eb marr\u00eb fillimisht me mu. Kan\u00eb shku dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, komplet stafi i pakt\u00eb n\u00eb num\u00ebr q\u00eb u kan\u00eb, jan\u00eb marr m\u00eb shum\u00eb me gruan e xhaxhit tem mandej, kan\u00eb ardh\u00eb tek un\u00eb. Edhe e di, e mbaj mend q\u00eb ka qen\u00eb nj\u00eb dhom\u00eb e bardh\u00eb, ka qen\u00eb nj\u00eb k\u00ebnd se&#8230; po mendoj, kam qen\u00eb tu e pa tavanin k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, e mbaj mend at\u00eb k\u00ebnd q\u00eb ka qen\u00eb. Edhe po m\u00eb duket, po get n\u00eb at\u00eb moment mu ma kan\u00eb dh\u00ebn\u00eb anestezionin q\u00eb un\u00eb me fjet edhe mandej me m\u00eb shti n\u00eb operim. Po e di, q\u00eb masi ka ndodh\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, masi q\u00eb ma kan\u00eb dh\u00ebn\u00eb gjilp\u00ebr\u00ebn un\u00eb kam fillu me humb\u00eb vet\u00ebdijen por, e di q\u00eb mami m\u00eb ka l\u00ebn\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, ka shku me pa gruan e xhaxhit. Po e di q\u00eb jam ndje tep\u00ebr vet. Edhe kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb memorie shum\u00eb e keqe q\u00eb un\u00eb e mbaj\u00eb mend. Jo ve\u00e7 p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb koh\u00eb por, diqysh \u00ebsht\u00eb nd\u00ebr memoriet m\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebqija q\u00eb un\u00eb i kam. Edhe nuk e di a kam b\u00ebrtit por, un\u00eb e kam nj\u00ebfar\u00eb asi memorie ose nj\u00eb asi ndjenje q\u00eb kam b\u00ebrtit ose kam dasht\u00eb me b\u00ebrtit po s&#8217;kam mund. Po e mbaj\u00eb mend dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, q\u00eb mami m\u00eb ka l\u00ebn\u00eb vet edhe jam ndje shum\u00eb e pa sigurt edhe jam ndij\u00eb tep\u00ebr keq edhe mandej e kam humb\u00eb vet\u00ebdijen. Mbas asaj, gjat\u00eb nat\u00ebs nuk e di kur ata m\u00eb kan\u00eb operu. E kan\u00eb hjek plumbin prej k\u00ebmb\u00ebs. Por, p\u00ebr shkak q\u00eb kam qen\u00eb tep\u00ebr e vog\u00ebl, plumbi nuk m\u00eb ka bo d\u00ebme shum\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdhaja, nuk mi ka l\u00ebndu dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, eshtrat p\u00ebr shkak q\u00eb eshtrat jan\u00eb kan\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u00eb but\u00eb edhe jan\u00eb largu prej distanc\u00ebs, prej shpejt\u00ebsis\u00eb t\u00eb plumbit. Plus, q\u00eb plumbi ka kalu n\u00ebp\u00ebr der\u00eb t\u00eb makin\u00ebs para se me ardh\u00eb te un\u00eb k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, nuk ka qen\u00eb me shpejt\u00ebsin\u00eb plot\u00eb. Dera e ka ndal\u00eb nj\u00eb shpejt\u00ebsi goxha &#8230; nj\u00eb pjes\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u00eb madhe. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, kur ka ardh\u00eb te k\u00ebmba jem ajo ka mbet brenda edhe nuk e ka shp\u00ebrthy, nuk e ka kalu tejp\u00ebrtej k\u00ebmb\u00ebs. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, qeky ka qen\u00eb nj\u00eb send i mir\u00eb q\u00eb ka ndodh\u00eb. Masandej, nuk e di sa kam ndejt n\u00eb spital. Po m\u00eb duket s&#8217;kena ndejt shum\u00eb. Un\u00eb t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn jo. P\u00ebr gruan e xhaxhit e di q\u00eb ajo ka ndejt pak m\u00eb gjat\u00eb n\u00eb spital. Un\u00eb jam kthy n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi&#8230; n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi jo, te banesa q\u00eb e kan\u00eb marr\u00eb me qera q\u00eb ka qen\u00eb n\u00eb Lezh\u00eb. Jam kthy, e di q\u00eb \u00e7do dit\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb dasht\u00eb me ardh\u00eb nj\u00eb doktoresh\u00eb edhe nj\u00eb doktor me ma pastru plag\u00ebn, me ma lidh me&#8230; mos me e l\u00ebn\u00eb me u infektu q\u00eb me u sh\u00ebru pak m\u00eb shpejt. Edhe po m\u00eb duket qeky send ka zgjat\u00eb nja tre, kat\u00ebr muaj. Dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, jan\u00eb marr derisa u sh\u00ebru pak m\u00eb mir\u00eb. Mami tregon q\u00eb e kam pas k\u00ebmb\u00ebn k\u00ebshtu komplet t\u00eb zez\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, p\u00ebr shkak t\u00eb plag\u00ebs. K\u00ebto nuk&#8230; un\u00eb k\u00ebto nuk jan\u00eb sende q\u00eb i mbaj\u00eb mend un\u00eb vet por, kur t\u00eb fol\u00ebt p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb histori gjith\u00eb tregohet q\u00eb un\u00eb kam qen\u00eb shum\u00eb kok\u00ebfort\u00eb edhe nuk kam pas qejf kerkush me e prek plag\u00ebn. Kam qen\u00eb shum\u00eb e pavarur n\u00eb at\u00eb mosh\u00eb. Edhe e di q\u00eb tregojn\u00eb q\u00eb un\u00eb kam lidh\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00ebn vet, e kam zgjidh\u00eb vet, s&#8217;kam pas qejf kerkush. Ndoshta edhe jam tut se garant m\u00eb ka dhimt\u00eb. Por, mami tregon q\u00eb p\u00ebr shembull, kur un\u00eb kam fjet \u00ebsht\u00eb dasht\u00eb me ma drejtu k\u00ebmb\u00ebn p\u00ebr shkak q\u00eb jan\u00eb tut q\u00eb ka me m\u00eb mbet k\u00ebmba se un\u00eb jam kan\u00eb mandej paranojake n\u00ebse&#8230; ose me e l\u00ebviz\u00eb ose \u00e7kado qoft\u00eb q\u00eb ka pas t\u00eb b\u00ebj me k\u00ebmb\u00eb. E tash dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, na kemi q\u00ebndru n\u00eb Lezh\u00eb goxha do koh\u00eb. Un\u00eb e di q\u00eb situata u kan\u00eb shum\u00eb e r\u00ebnd\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, p\u00ebrve\u00e7 neve q\u00eb kena pas. Un\u00eb jam i vetmi f\u00ebmij\u00eb q\u00eb kam pas, p\u00ebrve\u00e7 t\u00eb djalit t\u00eb xhaxhit q\u00eb ka vdek. T\u00eb tjer\u00eb s&#8217;kan\u00eb pas ndonj\u00eb far\u00eb l\u00ebndimi fizik por, kan\u00eb qen\u00eb shum\u00eb n\u00eb gjendje t\u00eb keqe emocionale. E di motra jem ka pas probleme me&#8230; \u00ebsht\u00eb tut shum\u00eb, nuk ka mund me ndenjt\u00eb vet dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, jan\u00eb kan\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebt jasht\u00ebzakonisht shum\u00eb t\u00eb terrorizum. Edhe t\u00eb m\u00ebdhajt dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, \u201cof course\u201d njer\u00ebzit e rritur q\u00eb&#8230;<br \/>\nIntervistuesja: E kan\u00eb p\u00ebrjetu krejt.<br \/>\nUrtina Hoxha: &#8230; e kan\u00eb p\u00ebrjetu krejt, e kan\u00eb humb nj\u00eb nip, djal\u00eb. Edhe gruaja e xhaxhit dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, ka qen\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00eb gjendje goxha kritike. Ka qen\u00eb n\u00eb gjendje t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00eb. Q\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, situata ka qen\u00eb shum\u00eb, shum\u00eb e keqe n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Por, un\u00eb jam kan\u00eb e vog\u00ebl edhe nuk e kam dit\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb send por, mu krejt \u00e7ka m\u00eb ka interesu u kan\u00eb q\u00eb un\u00eb s&#8217;kam mund me dal me lujt. Edhe jam kan\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, ata krejt kan\u00eb dal me lujt para banes\u00ebs, kan\u00eb lujt me top, \u00e7ka po di \u00e7ka kan\u00eb lujt, e un\u00eb s&#8217;kam mund me dal se s&#8217;kam mund me ec\u00eb p\u00ebr do muaj. E ajo u kan\u00eb brenga m\u00eb e madhe edhe tregojn\u00eb q\u00eb kam qajt\u00eb aq shum\u00eb edhe ve\u00e7 kam dasht\u00eb me dal me lujt, s&#8217;ma ka ndij\u00eb a jam kan\u00eb e plagosur a jo por, kam dasht\u00eb me kan\u00eb nj\u00eb&#8230;<br \/>\nIntervistuesja: A t\u00eb kan\u00eb pa&#8230; a ke pas probleme ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb mo me k\u00ebmb\u00eb prej asaj kohe. Dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, mbas sh\u00ebrimit deri sot?<br \/>\nUrtina Hoxha: Po, po hala kam po mendoj. Sidomos kur kam qen\u00eb tu u rrit\u00eb, kur t\u00eb zgjaten eshtrat. At\u00ebher\u00eb kam pas shum\u00eb probleme. Dimri \u00ebsht\u00eb goxha i v\u00ebshtir\u00eb p\u00ebr mu. Gjith\u00eb ka qen\u00eb, ka pas momente dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, kam pas dhimbje shum\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebdhaja edhe s&#8217;kam mund me shku as n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb. Mandej, as profesorat nuk jan\u00eb kan\u00eb tep\u00ebr t\u00eb kuptuesh\u00ebm p\u00ebr faktin q\u00eb un\u00eb s&#8217;kam mund me shku n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb. E di nj\u00ebher\u00eb e pat\u00ebn thirr mamin edhe ja kan\u00eb bo: n\u00ebse \u00e7ik\u00ebs i dhemb pak k\u00ebmba pse ki nevoj\u00eb me e ndal\u00eb prej shkoll\u00ebs. Po un\u00eb eci mir\u00eb dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, s&#8217;\u00ebsht\u00eb q\u00eb e kam&#8230; mu nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb v\u00ebrehet q\u00eb kam plag\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00eb. E kam k\u00ebmben goxha normal. Po kam probleme dometh\u00ebn\u00eb, kam dhimbje sidomos kur ndryshon koha, kur t\u00eb b\u00ebhet ftoft\u00eb. Nuk mundem me i bo do sene p\u00ebr shembull, nuk mundem me vrapu se \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb \u201cpainful\u201d \u00ebsht\u00eb&#8230; kam dhimbje t\u00eb m\u00ebdhaja p\u00ebr shembull, kur t\u00eb vrapoj ose kur t&#8217;i b\u00ebj disa aktivitete fizike. Por, jam m\u00ebsu, nuk&#8230; a po e din, un\u00eb prej e maj&#8230; un\u00eb prej q\u00eb e mbaj mend vet\u00ebn e mbaj mend me k\u00ebt\u00eb send. K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb send shum\u00eb normal p\u00ebr mu. Un\u00eb gjith\u00eb e di q\u00eb kur t\u00eb vjen janari, shkurti un\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb kam me pas dhimbje n\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00eb. \u00cbsht\u00eb jasht\u00ebzakonisht shum\u00eb e normalizume p\u00ebr mu. Ndoshta nuk duhet me qen\u00eb por, \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb e normalizume.<br \/>\nIntervistuesja: Faleminderit shum\u00eb.[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_column][\/vc_row]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>[vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text][\/vc_column_text][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]Intervistuesja: Faleminderit shum\u00eb Urtin\u00eb. A po e fillojna pak me m\u00eb kall\u00ebzu qysh e ka marr\u00eb vendimin familja p\u00ebr me dal? Ku je kan\u00eb? Qysh e mban mend pak at\u00eb periudh\u00eb kohore? Urtina Hoxha: Po. Na kemi jetu n\u00eb Suharek\u00eb, me nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi qeshtu dy kat. Ka qen\u00eb nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi goxha e madhe. 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