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V.K.: P\u00ebrshendetje, a munesh me n\u2019au prezantu?<\/p>\n

E: Po, patjet\u00ebr.Un\u00eb jam Elida Shasivari, jam nan\u00eb e dy fmij\u00ebve. Isha e martuar me t\u00eb ndjerin Kujtim Dulen. Jam aktore me profesion.Kam lind n\u00eb Gjakov\u00eb dhe jetoj ende n\u00eb Gjakov\u00eb.Jam pun\u00ebtore, aktore n\u00eb Teatrin e qytetit t\u00eb Gjakov\u00ebs.<\/p>\n

V.K.: A mundesh me na tregu historin\u00eb tuaj gjat\u00eb luft\u00ebs?<\/p>\n

E: Po, patjet\u00ebr. Mund t\u00eb flasim pak n\u2019pika ma t\u2019shkurta; n\u00ebse kemi mund\u00ebsi t\u2019i p\u00ebrmbledhim t\u00eb gjitha. Startojm\u00eb prej 24 Marsit ose pak ma p\u00ebrpara. T\u2019gjith\u00eb e dijm\u00eb, kemi qen\u00eb present. Situata ka qen\u00eb jasht\u00ebzakonisht e r\u00ebndueme: mungesa e ushqimit, mungesa e siguris\u00eb, e t\u2019gjitha ato. Edhe erdh\u00ebm deri te 24 Marsi, Dita e Bombardimeve t\u00eb NATO-s. P\u00ebr fat t\u2019keq, me 24, burri im i ndjeri \u00ebsht\u00eb ekzekutu nga paramilitart serb\u00eb dhe ka qen\u00eb viktima e par\u00eb civile n\u00eb qytetin e Gjakov\u00ebs. At\u00eb e ndal\u00ebn n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, e neve na d\u00ebbun jasht\u00eb. Dhe un\u00eb e kisha edhe nan\u00ebn at\u00eb nat\u00eb n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, vjehrra edhe dy fmij\u00ebt e mi q\u00eb ishin shum\u00eb t\u2019vegj\u00ebl, do t\u00eb thot\u00eb beba \u2013 na largun nga sht\u00ebpia. Edhe, kjo ndodhi me 24 dhe nuk kemi arrit\u00eb me e varros deri m\u00eb 28 Mars. Un\u00eb me fmijt, me vjehrr\u00ebn, edhe me nan\u00ebn, t\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen her\u00ebt me m\u00ebngjes – At\u00eb nat\u00eb, nat\u00ebn isha te nj\u00eb grua e agj\u00ebs, af\u00ebr shpis\u00eb. Jan\u00eb situata q\u00eb jan\u00eb t\u2019pa p\u00ebrshkrueshme, vet\u00ebm ai q\u00eb i ka p\u00ebrjetu munet me i than\u00eb, me tregu p\u00ebr to. Edhe t\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen n\u00eb m\u00ebngjes shkova n\u00eb Teqen e Madhe, sepse ishin t\u00eb hapura dyert at\u00eb nat\u00eb, p\u00ebr t\u2019gjith\u00eb refugjat\u00eb, p\u00ebr t\u2019gjith\u00eb njerzt q\u00eb jan\u00eb n\u00eb gjendje t\u2019jasht\u00ebzakonshme. Aty gjeta nj\u00eb num\u00ebr shum\u00eb t\u2019madh t\u2019njerzve. Ishin ardh edhe nga rrethina, do t\u00eb thot\u00eb nj\u00eb koh\u00eb ma p\u00ebrpara edhe plus nj\u00eb nat\u00eb p\u00ebrpara q\u00eb ne u vendos\u00ebm aty. Q\u00ebndrum deri me 2 prill n\u00eb Teqen e Madhe edhe vendos\u00ebm me 1 prill, ishte kolona e par\u00eb q\u00eb dul\u00ebm p\u00ebr Shqipni. Murrem vesh do t\u00eb thot\u00eb edhe vendos\u00ebm q\u00eb me dal edhe na. I vesh\u00ebm fmijt, i bom gati, dolem, ishte nj\u00eb kolon\u00eb jashtzakonisht e madhe. Rrug\u00ebs ka pas provokime t\u00eb ndryshme. Dikun n\u2019dalje t\u2019Gjakov\u00ebs, te tyrbja, tek Teqja q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb tyrbja, te varrezat na morr\u00ebn t\u2019gjitha dokumentat, dhun\u00eb psiqike ma shum\u00eb se nuk mundem me than\u00eb q\u00eb ka pas\u00eb dhun\u00eb fizike. Mundem me fol personalisht p\u00ebr veti, edhe e kalum kufinin. Ishte nj\u00eb udh\u00ebtim i pa p\u00ebrshkrush\u00ebm, n\u00eb at\u00eb gjendje do t\u00eb thot\u00eb \u2013 ashtu qysh ishim me tesha t\u00eb trupit, un\u00eb plus i kisha edhe \u00e7iken edhe djalin se kan\u00eb qen\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u2019vegj\u00ebl. Edhe e kalum kufinin, edhe n\u2019momentin q\u00eb e kemi kalu kufinin psiqikisht ke qen\u00eb ma e qet\u00eb edhe un\u00eb personalisht jam kthy n\u2019ket\u00eb an\u00ebn edhe kom than\u00eb ishalla nuk kemi me pas\u00eb shum\u00eb viktima. Ka qen\u00eb nj\u00eb num\u00ebr jasht\u00ebzakonisht i madh kur kan\u00eb hy mrena n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Burri pat fillu me punu n\u00eb OSBE, nja 1 muj p\u00ebrpara, 1 muj e gjys\u00eb. Dyshime nuk mundem me than\u00eb kush ka qen\u00eb prezent, sepse krejt kan\u00eb qen\u00eb at\u00eb nat\u00eb t\u2019maskum.Do t\u00eb thot\u00eb nuk ke mujt me i identifiku edhe, nejse. Kalum kufinin, u vendos\u00ebm n\u00eb Letaj, Kulaj, Krum\u00eb, mandej shkum n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb se ishim nj\u00eb grup bukur i madh. Aty ishin dyert e hapura tek familja Gjoshi n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb. Kemi nejt nja 10 dit\u00eb. P\u00ebr fat t\u00eb keq gjysa e grupit q\u00eb ishim mbet\u00ebm n\u00eb Tiran\u00eb, gjys\u00ebn i kan\u00eb p\u00ebrcjell\u00eb p\u00ebr Pogradec n\u00ebp\u00ebr kamiona. Kush i ka p\u00ebrjetu i din t\u00eb gjitha ato. Edhe, mandej vazhdum rrug\u00ebn na me u bashkangjit\u00eb me pjes\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr, me familjar\u00eb q\u00eb ishin n\u00eb Pogradec. Dhe aty kemi ndej nja 10 dit\u00eb. Prej aty nj\u00eb mik i familjes, edhe pse ishte kufini i mbyllun, me siguri me pare investoj dhe na p\u00ebrcillen, dol\u00ebm n\u00eb Maqedoni. Aty kemi ndejt nj\u00ebher\u00eb me nj\u00eb familje nja 10 dit\u00eb. Mandej un\u00eb kam shku n\u00eb Shkup, n\u00eb periferi t\u00eb Shkupit me ni familje q\u00eb erdhen m\u00eb murren se un\u00eb shkova n\u2019teat\u00ebr dhe lypa ndihm\u00eb ni dhom\u00eb sa do nj\u00eb shminktore a sado se isha me nan\u00ebn edhe fmit\u00eb. Mir\u00ebpo dulen disa vullnetar\u00eb, ni familje m\u00eb murren, aty kam nejt deri me 22 korrik. S\u00eb pari me 23 qershor ishte hera e par\u00eb kur vendosa me ardh n\u00eb Gjakov\u00eb me pa a kam ku me u kthy. Masi u kryn n\u00ebnshkrimet e t\u2019gjitha ato, gjat\u00eb periudh\u00ebs sa isha n\u00eb Shkup, kishin qen\u00eb motrat Qiriazi, Safete dhe Igballe Rugova me ni projekt p\u00ebr grat\u00eb. Edhe kontaktum, m\u2019luten me bashk\u00ebpunu me to. Ishte gjendje e jasht\u00ebzakonshme, fmijt\u00eb i kom pas\u00eb shum\u00eb me trauma edhe e vendosa me bashk\u00ebpunu me to. Do me than\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb gjendje \u00ebsht\u00eb dasht me punu di\u00e7ka sepse fmijt\u00eb nuk kishin faj. Kom pas\u00eb intervista jasht\u00ebzakonisht t\u2019mdhaja, ndoshta edhe pas si ftyr\u00eb publike edhe e dijshin situat\u00ebn, mir\u00ebpo \u00ebsht\u00eb dasht me punu me mbijetu. Me 23 Qershor ishte hera e par\u00eb q\u00eb vendosa me ardh n\u2019Gjakov\u00eb me pa a kam ku me u kthy. Edhe Gjakova ka qen\u00eb nji shtretin\u00eb. Erdha n\u2019\u00c7arshi ishte dita e par\u00eb q\u00eb kishin fillu me pastru rrug\u00ebn, kishte gazetar\u00eb t\u2019huj, kishte disa intervista e t\u2019gjitha ato, i kam edhe disa fotografi qysh ka qen\u00eb \u00c7arshia. Mir\u00ebpo, u ktheva mas me 22 korrik ku vendosa p\u00ebr me ardh, edhe pse kisha k\u00ebrkesa me nejt atje. M\u2019i ofrojshin disa kushte me punu n\u2019teater, kishte televiziona, radio, e besa e menojshin q\u00eb edhe fmijt\u00eb do t\u2019rriten me hi n\u2019shkoll\u00eb e krejt. Mir\u00ebpo isha shum\u00eb e vendosne, edhe pse me shum\u00eb peripeti, q\u00eb do t\u2019kthehem n\u2019Gjakov\u00eb edhe do t\u2019rri n\u2019Gjakov\u00eb edhe do t\u2019i rris\u00eb fmit\u00eb n\u00eb vendin e vet. Periudha edhe jan\u00eb momente q\u00eb nuk harrohen. Edhe sot e ksaj dite shum\u00eb shpesh e menoj, fati e traumat te na t\u2019rritunit mbesin. \u00cbsht\u00eb fati q\u00eb fmijt\u00eb i kam pas shum\u00eb t\u2019vegjel. Vajza i mban mend disa skena, po fati q\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u2019vegjel edhe vetvetiu memoria iu fshi.Nd\u00ebrsa tek ne jo, jo, traumat jan\u00eb e sidomos tash kur lidhen me \u00e7ashtjet e pandemis\u00eb. Vitin e kalum q\u00eb ke ajo mbyllje e t\u2019gjitha ato, t\u2019kthehet filmi, e sheh situaten, kthehesh mas edhe pse e din q\u00eb nuk ki naj presion si p\u00ebrpara. Mir\u00ebpo, e kemi pas fatin e till\u00eb, edhe nuk ka. Burrin dmth me 24 e kan\u00eb ekzekutu, deri m\u00eb 28 nuk kemi mund m\u2019i varros. Ka qen\u00eb viktima e par\u00eb, mas tij kan\u00eb qen\u00eb nipi dhe axha e familjes Zherka, mandej (nuk d\u00ebgjohet) i kat\u00ebrti. Edhe u kthym, mas ni kohe erdhen me bo ekspertiz\u00eb. Nuk kisha e disponimit me dhan\u00eb deklarata t\u00eb ndryshme, mir\u00ebpo ata insistun sepse ata than\u00eb se ti e ki pas… e as si thashetheme kan\u00eb pas\u00eb, nuk dijsha a ka qen\u00eb viktima e par\u00eb, i nderi burri im apo i kat\u00ebrti apo i pesti, sepse t\u2019nesermen ka pas\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u2019zhdukun n\u2019kt\u00eb pjes\u00eb t\u2019qytetit n\u2019\u00c7arshi. Edhe ata m\u2019than\u00eb Elid\u00eb ti e ke pas\u00eb rastin e para edhe duhet patjet\u00ebr pa p\u00ebrfundu. E kryn edhe ekspertizen sepse edhe shpija ka qen\u00eb e djegur. Edhe po pysin a don me marr\u00eb pjes\u00eb n\u2019ekspertiz\u00eb. Un\u00eb thash n\u00ebse \u00ebsht\u00eb e lejume pse jo. Megjithat\u00eb ata e kan\u00eb kry ekspertizen, mandej pak ma von\u00eb ma kan\u00eb sjell\u00eb \u00e7ertifikaten. Edhe po thojn\u00eb na e dijm\u00eb q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb i vran\u00eb nga kush, por individi jo. Ajo shum\u00eb normale se individi nuk dihet, edhe pse un\u00eb shum\u00eb e vet\u00ebdijshme isha sepse aty ishin t\u2019gjith\u00eb me maska edhe nuk mundesh me dyshu p\u00ebr dikon me than\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb ky apo \u00ebsht\u00eb ai. Edhe u kthym, u kthyn n\u2019Kosov\u00eb, u kthym n\u2019Gjakov\u00eb me shum\u00eb peripeti. Gjakova e djegne, nuk kisha as shpi, as shpija e burrit, as shpija e nan\u00ebs, as shpija e vllaut, t\u2019gjitha ishin t\u2019djegne. Edhe u vendosa me ni banes\u00eb dikun nalt n\u2019qender, ma dhan\u00eb. Aty kam q\u00ebndru p\u00ebr tri vjet. Mandej fillun peripetit\u00eb tjera. Mas luftes, edhe pse isha e vet\u00ebdijshme, megjithat\u00eb deri n\u2019at\u00eb shkall\u00eb nuk e prisja. Nuk pata ndihm\u00eb prej qeverisjes s\u00eb at\u00ebhershme, prej Gjakoves, as nj\u00eb tull\u00eb. Me forca t\u2019mija fillova gradualisht edhe e bona pak nj\u00eb kulm t\u2019vogel ku edhe sot jetoj. Fillova edhe vazhdova punen, edhe k\u00ebshtu erdhem deri sot ku jemi.<\/p>\n

V.K.: A mundesh me na p\u00ebrshkru gjendjen psikologjike ose me i p\u00ebrshkru dit\u00ebt gjat\u00eb koh\u00ebs q\u00eb keni q\u00ebndru si refugjate.<\/p>\n

E: Patjet\u00ebr. N\u2019momentin… e para luftes, dmth dit\u00ebt e fundit vazhdimisht kam q\u00ebndru para televizionit, i kam p\u00ebrcjell\u00eb mediat \u00e7ka po bohet, e t\u2019gjitha ato. Edhe kemi qen\u00eb t\u2019lodhur psiqikisht, kemi qen\u00eb t\u2019rraskapaitun, se e percjell\u00eb. Mandej duke u bazu n\u2019situaten, n\u2019luften se n\u2019Bosnje i kan\u00eb vra dy dajt\u00eb e burrit. Do me than\u00eb i pritshe, e dijshe pak a shum\u00eb situaten \u00e7ka do t\u2019ndodh\u00eb edhe knej. Un\u00eb personalisht p\u00ebr veti aq shum\u00eb kam qen\u00eb e lodhne. N\u2019dy masdite jan\u00eb mbyll t\u2019gjitha lokalet, dmth dyqanet q\u00eb kan\u00eb qen\u00eb n\u2019\u00c7arshi t\u2019madhe, nuk i kan\u00eb ndez\u00eb as dritat paramendo. Ve\u00e7 e menojsha n\u00ebse m\u2019smuhet njani prej fmijve un\u00eb nuk jam n\u2019gjendje me i \u00e7u deri te mjeku, e ambulanca shum\u00eb af\u00ebr. Mir\u00ebpo, un\u00eb kam pas patrolla t\u00eb ndryshme e t\u2019gjitha ato, i dijm\u00eb na q\u00eb kemi qen\u00eb. Psiqikisht. Shkum, dulem prej k\u2019tu, ndodhi ajo \u00e7ka ndodhi, kur dulem psiqikisht je ma e qet\u00eb, e din q\u00eb nuk ki pas ma, nuk ki dhun\u00eb, nuk pret n\u2019\u00e7do moment kur t\u2019hin dikush don me t\u2019vra e t\u2019gjitha ato. Mir\u00ebpo skenat nuk largohen, skenat nuk largohen. Edhe kur u kthym, gjendja shpritnore dmth, je e thyne. Edhe pse e ki humb an\u00ebtarin e familjes, nuk gjen, do t\u00eb thot\u00eb nuk ki pas\u00eb p\u00ebrkrahje. Un\u00eb personalisht muj me fol p\u00ebr veti, nuk kom pas p\u00ebrkrahje. As kulm nuk kisha. Kudo q\u00eb shkojsha me k\u00ebrku ndihm\u00eb, thojshin ti munesh vet\u00eb, ti je e fort\u00eb, ti munesh, munesh, munehs… Jan\u00eb bo shum\u00eb keqp\u00ebrdorime, megjithat\u00eb secili e ka p\u00ebr veti. Mir\u00ebpo edhe sot e ksaj dite jan\u00eb. Fillimin e kom pas\u00eb shum\u00eb ma t\u2019vshtir\u00eb. Mandej fmijt\u00eb fillun e u rriten, kur u ktheva dojshin me dit\u00eb se gjithmon\u00eb un\u00eb kom fol. P\u00ebr fat t\u2019mir\u00eb e kom gjet\u00eb forcen p\u00ebr me punu, p\u00ebr me ekzistu se ata nuk kishin faj, fmijt\u00eb. N\u00ebp\u00ebr radio t\u2019ndryshme, n\u00ebp\u00ebr t\u2019gjitha ato edhe krejt energjin\u00eb negative, krejt at\u00eb mllefin q\u00eb e kisha gjat\u00eb javes e gjujsha n\u00ebp\u00ebr emisone. Nuk ka qen\u00eb e leht\u00eb, e sidomos me bo humor n\u2019at\u00eb gjendje q\u00eb isha un\u00eb, por s\u2019ke pas\u00eb rrug\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. N\u00ebp\u00ebr intervista t\u2019ndryshme kur i kan\u00eb pa fmijt\u00eb e m\u2019kan\u00eb, qysh a je normale. N\u2019kt\u00eb gjendje me k\u2019to dy beba ti edhe shkon edhe del n\u00ebp\u00ebr kampe me ju bo humor njerzve, n\u2019Maqedoni kur isha, me ju bo humor atyre, q\u00eb ata ishin komplet familja edhe q\u00eb ishin t\u2019d\u00ebbun. Edhe i kom kqyr se nuk kisha rrug\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, ose me falimentu komplet me i lan\u00eb edhe dy fmijt\u00eb, ose me ec p\u00ebrpara me i rrit\u00eb fmijt\u00eb. Mir\u00ebpo, me ni forc\u00eb t\u2019jat\u00ebzakonshme. Jom optimiste n\u2019jet\u00eb, duhesh me pranu realitetin, ajo ndodhi nuk kishte kthim mas. Nuk kishte me fajin as timin as t\u2019dikujt tjeter, edhe mrrijtem k\u2019tu ku jemi. Edhe nj\u00eb plus ka qen\u00eb p\u00ebr mu, se jasht\u00ebzakonisht shum\u00eb, prej momentin t\u2019par\u00eb, un\u00eb kom pas, kom dhan\u00eb intervista shum\u00eb. Ndoshta edhe pse ka qen\u00eb viktima e par\u00eb, edhe profesioni e bon t\u2019veten. Se n\u2019momentin tu dal\u00eb p\u00ebr Shqipni, \u00e7do i dyti qytetar m\u2019ka than\u00eb ama t\u2019nimoj, ama \u00e7iken ose ama djalin. Edhe me nji moment ju kom kthy nan\u00ebs i kom than\u00eb deri tash kom punu, mir\u00ebpo tash e mas do t\u2019punoj edhe ma tep\u00ebr. Do me than\u00eb ai mundi, djersa nuk ka ra n\u2019tok\u00eb. Intervistat e mdhaja ma kan\u00eb mund\u00ebsu m\u2019u liru prej atij stresi t\u2019ngjeshun n\u2019shpirt e n\u2019trup. Do me than\u00eb, n\u2019fillim e kom pas\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u2019vshtir\u00eb, mu ka tha fyti e nuk kom fjet nat\u00eb, me traum\u00eb, dridhje e t\u2019gjitha ato se shum\u00eb t\u2019vshtir\u00eb e kom me qajt\u00eb. Edhe intervist\u00eb pas interviste erdh edhe zbehje e atyre. Tash di, tash muj me fol lirisht p\u00ebr \u00e7do detaj, edhe fatmir\u00ebsisht asnji detaj ma t\u2019voglin nuk e kam harru prej luftes. Mir\u00ebpo \u00ebsht\u00eb intervist\u00eb e shkurt edhe nuk kemi nevoj\u00eb me hi n\u2019detaje.<\/p>\n

V.K.: Si ndihesh tash pas 22-23 viteve pas luftes?<\/p>\n

E: \u00cbh\u00eb\u00eb. \u00cbsht\u00eb shum\u00eb e thjesht\u00eb me than\u00eb. Peripetit\u00eb e t\u2019gjitha ato i mbaj p\u00ebr veti, ndoshta pajtohem me at\u00eb sepse ka qen\u00eb fati im. K\u00ebshtu un\u00eb thash pak ma her\u00ebt jam optimiste n\u2019jet\u00eb, fmijt\u00eb nuk kan\u00eb faj, duhet me punu, jeta duhet t\u2019vazhdohet. Mir\u00ebpo kur i shoh disa dallime, kur i shoh disa njer\u00ebz q\u00eb ankohen p\u00ebr cikrrime t\u2019vogla, p\u00ebr mu \u00ebsht\u00eb absurde, jeta \u00ebsht\u00eb e till\u00eb. Zbraztia ndihet, nuk e ke pas\u00eb mb\u00ebshtjetjen nga asnji pushtet q\u00eb ka qen\u00eb deri m\u00eb sot, por duhesh me menu se jeta \u00ebsht\u00eb e jotja, ti vet\u00eb duhesh me u mundu me ec\u00eb p\u00ebrpara. T\u2019njejten rrug\u00eb i kam eduku edhe fmijt\u00eb, deri tash jan\u00eb mir\u00eb edhe besoj q\u00eb do ta vazhdojn\u00eb.<\/p>\n

V.K.: Tek fmijt\u00eb \u2013 tash q\u00eb jan\u00eb rrit\u00eb edhe kan\u00eb kriju, kan\u00eb nd\u00ebrtu karrieren e tyne edhe kan\u00eb kriju familjet e tyne, si vazhdon jeta e tyne pas humbjes t\u2019bab\u00ebs pas luftes?<\/p>\n

E: Fmijt\u00eb jan\u00eb ende t\u2019rinj. Kan\u00eb qen\u00eb shum\u00eb t\u2019vegj\u00ebl, un\u00eb t\u2019tregova edhe ma heret. Edhe isha konsultu me disa psikolog\u00eb, edhe e kisha vendos\u00eb n\u2019vetvete q\u00eb deri kur t\u2019hijn\u00eb n\u2019shkoll\u00eb mos me ju tregu. Se n\u2019shkoll\u00eb kur t\u2019hin fmija, ai ka me shkru tema, ose arsimtari ose m\u00ebsuesi ka me i pyt p\u00ebr nan\u00ebn, p\u00ebr bab\u00eb, e t\u2019gjitha ato. Edhe e kisha mendu q\u00eb para se me hi n\u2019shkoll\u00eb do t\u2019ju tregoj q\u00eb t\u2019jen\u00eb t\u2019p\u00ebrgatitun psiqikisht. Sado q\u00eb na e dijshim, se un\u00eb e kom dit\u00eb se ka pas\u00eb raste q\u00eb kan\u00eb qen\u00eb t\u2019zhdukun, edhe masi kan\u00eb hi fmijt\u00eb n\u2019klas\u00eb t\u2019par\u00eb, t\u2019dyten, t\u2019treten ju kan\u00eb dal\u00eb prind e zhdukun. Fmija nuk ka faj, ai duhet me kan\u00eb i p\u00ebrgatitun p\u00ebr gjith\u00e7ka n\u2019jet\u00eb. Edhe \u00e7ika filloj n\u2019klasen e par\u00eb. E kisha n\u2019plan me i marr\u00eb ni dit\u00eb, me i qit\u00eb dikun edhe me m\u2019iu tregu realitetin. Edhe p\u00ebr fat t\u2019mir\u00eb po thot\u00eb Elid\u00eb, se m\u2019thirrin n\u2019emen, edhe po thot\u00eb a don me na tregu p\u00ebr babin. I thash po nan\u00eb. Edhe po ju shpjegoj q\u00eb lufta i ka pasojat e veta, dikush \u00ebsht\u00eb i vran\u00eb, dikush i zhdukun, dikush n\u00ebp\u00ebr burgje. Thash na kemi pas fat babin e kan\u00eb vra, por \u00ebsht\u00eb i varrosun, e ka varrin, i ka t\u2019gjitha k\u2019to. Edhe e kom pas\u00eb problem vetem 24 or\u00eb. Do me than\u00eb un\u00eb kam shku deri n\u2019banjo, ata mas meje edhe krejt. Edhe jan\u00eb krenar\u00eb p\u00ebr at\u00eb pun\u00eb edhe pse s\u2019kan\u00eb asni beneficion, mir\u00ebpo jan\u00eb krenar\u00eb. Edhe shpesh kur bisedojm\u00eb, se ka q\u00eb i kan\u00eb keqp\u00ebrdor\u00eb, emrin ose rastin q\u00eb e kan\u00eb pas\u00eb. Edhe ni dit\u00eb vajza po m\u2019thot\u00eb sa mir\u00eb q\u00eb nuk e ke shpall\u00eb d\u00ebshmor babin. Thash nuk ka qen\u00eb d\u00ebshmor. Tha Elid\u00eb, na jemi t\u2019rritun, na e dijm\u00eb q\u00eb ka pas\u00eb raste q\u00eb i kan\u00eb shpall\u00eb d\u00ebshmor, tha po un\u00eb kisha ec\u00eb me kry teposht\u00eb. Thash jo un\u00eb nuk shkeli n\u2019gjak. E, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb kom punu drejt\u00eb me ta, realitetin gjithmon\u00eb, jam shum\u00eb e hapun. \u00c7ika e ka kry Gjuh\u00ebn dhe Let\u00ebrsin\u00eb Angleze edhe rrin n\u2019shpi se nuk jemi t\u2019ky\u00e7un me asni parti politike, fatkeq\u00ebsisht ose fatmir\u00ebsisht. Djali tash do t\u2019vazhdon sepse me ni rrog\u00eb t\u2019komunes ti nuk mundesh me i pas\u00eb dy studenta t\u2019njejten koh\u00eb pa pas\u00eb burime tjera. N\u2019kushte tona. Por jam n\u2019rrug\u00eb t\u2019drejt\u00eb, jam shum\u00eb e knaqun me sukseset e tyne. Edhe un\u00eb vazhdoj t\u2019punoj n\u00eb teat\u00ebr edhe jemi nj\u00eb familje, kemi demokraci t\u2019plot\u00eb. Nuk ka thashetheme n\u2019shpi, e kqyrim jeten ton\u00eb, kshtu edhe duhet.<\/p>\n

V.K.: Si ka qen\u00eb p\u00ebrvoja juaj si aktore para luftes n\u00eb Teater?<\/p>\n

E: Para luftes kemi pas kushte tjera. Un\u00eb jam n\u2019teater prej vitit 1982, dmth un\u00eb nuk i kam pas hala 20 vjet kur kam hi n\u2019teater. Edhe kemi punu shum\u00eb shfaqje, kemi pas\u00eb pes\u00eb (nuk d\u00ebgjohet). Kemi pas\u00eb dy t\u2019let\u00ebrsis\u00eb Shqipe, nj\u00eb t\u2019letersis\u00eb Jugosllave n\u2019at\u00eb koh\u00eb, edhe dy shfaqje t\u2019huja. Nj\u00eb shfaqje ka qen\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb p\u00ebr fmij\u00eb. Kemi punu komplet nj\u00eb ansamb\u00ebl, kemi qen\u00eb nj\u00eb trup jasht\u00ebzakonisht i mir\u00eb, edhe pse n\u2019masa t\u2019dhunshme shpesh her\u00eb. Na kur kemi bo prova, jan\u00eb ardh policia t\u2019armatosun sidomos viteve t\u2019fundit dhe kan\u00eb lyp p\u00ebrkthimin e tekstit edhe pse ka qen\u00eb i let\u00ebrsis\u00eb t\u2019huj. Paramendo, tu bo prova n\u2019sken\u00eb ti, ata me walkie-talkie, e p\u00ebrcjellje n\u2019\u00e7do hap. Kur kemi shkru naj shfaqje t\u2019fmijve, p\u00ebrshembull m\u2019kujtohet sakt\u00eb \u201cBesimi i humbur v\u00ebshtir\u00eb t\u2019fitohet\u201d. Na kemi dal\u00eb n\u2019teren n\u00ebp\u00ebr qytete t\u00eb ndryshme edhe na nalshin mos me dhan\u00eb shfaqjen pa e p\u00ebrkthy tekstin. Dojshin gjithmon\u00eb me i ndal aktivitetet kulturore. \u201cBesimi i humbur v\u00ebshtir\u00eb fitohet\u201d \u2013 dhelpra, pula, maca; shfaqje e fmijve prej klases t\u2019par\u00eb deri n\u2019klas\u00eb t\u2019kat\u00ebrt. Mir\u00ebpo, masat kan\u00eb qen\u00eb, situata ka qen\u00eb e till\u00eb edhe i kemi tejkalu. Tash jemi n\u2019gjendje tjeter edhe kushtet tash nuk jan\u00eb, nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb vler\u00ebsu kultura edhe arti mir\u00ebpo vazhdojm\u00eb. I kam edhe nja pes\u00eb vjet me dal n\u2019pension, kshtuq\u00eb artistat nuk plaken. Jam shum\u00eb optimiste thash, un\u00eb kam qef me jetu shum\u00eb edhe besoj q\u00eb do t\u2019jetoj shum\u00eb. Perve\u00e7 teatrit un\u00eb mirrna edh eme projekte t\u00eb ndryshme, ma shum\u00eb kah komedia. I maj disa takime me gra, dhe mas luftes ni periudh\u00eb kohore bukur gjat\u00eb kam majt\u00eb takime me gra. Ka pas\u00eb shum\u00eb nevoj\u00eb. Kom qen\u00eb nj\u00eb nd\u00ebr themeluset e para t\u2019shoqates N\u00ebna Terez\u00eb dega n\u00eb Gjakov\u00eb. Mandej kom pas mas luftes nj\u00eb shoqat\u00eb humanitare timen nj\u00eb periudh\u00eb. Apelojsha n\u00ebp\u00ebr radio edhe le t\u2019jepmi tesha se njerzt kan\u00eb pas nevoj\u00eb, na e dijm\u00eb \u00e7far\u00eb gjendje ka qen\u00eb edhe pa ndihmu nuk ka. Kemi pas\u00eb shum\u00eb raste n\u2019rrethin\u00eb t\u2019Gjakoves e matutje. Mandej e kisha nji projekt me Malteserin kom punu. Projekt grat\u00eb p\u00ebr grat\u00eb edhe me pika t\u2019humorit edhe disa recitime. Ka qen\u00eb shum vshtir\u00eb, sidomos kur i kisha paradite edhe n\u2019fush\u00eb, n\u2019Serbi, n\u2019kto raste q\u00eb ishin nuset e reja e harrojsha veten shum\u00eb shpesh. Megjith\u00ebse ato i kishin kushtet ma t\u2019mira se t\u2019mijat, bile shpin\u00eb e kishin. Un\u00eb se kisha as shpin\u00eb, e leje tjerat. Mir\u00ebpo, me pun\u00eb nuk ki. Un\u00eb nuk ndalem me aktivitete dhe kam bo nji liber se kemi raste shum\u00eb t\u2019rana, sidomos n\u2019komun\u00eb t\u2019Gjakov\u00ebs jan\u00eb shum\u00eb sht\u00ebpija t\u00eb mbyllne. Do me than\u00eb gjith\u00eb meshkujt e shpis\u00eb jan\u00eb t\u2019vran\u00eb, t\u00eb ekzekutun, nuset ose i kan\u00eb lan\u00eb fmijt ose s\u2019kan\u00eb pas\u00eb fmi. Do me than\u00eb ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb shujt, ajo der\u00eb, sidomos rastin e Ferdonije Qerkezit. Vitin e kalum ja kom ba nji monografi, bashk\u00eb me profesor Muhamet Rugoven, kemi punu. I kemi pas\u00eb dy shok\u00eb \u2013 nj\u00eb shok edhe nj\u00eb shoqe q\u00eb kan\u00eb qen\u00eb donator\u00eb. Ajo nuk ka ndonj\u00eb bagazh t\u2019jet\u00ebs mir\u00ebpo vlen mos m\u2019i harru se e harrojn\u00eb njerzt. Ajo e ka burrin dhe kat\u00ebr djemt, dy i ka t\u00eb rivarrosun, tre t\u00eb tjer\u00eb nuk din as ku i ka as qysh i ka \u2013 kah i ka. Do me than\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb e vet\u00ebdijshme q\u00eb nuk i kthehen. Edhe vazhdojm\u00eb me qekaq. I maj disa takime me grat\u00eb, fillimi ka qen\u00eb mjaft i v\u00ebshtir\u00eb. Paramendo, un\u00eb n\u2019gjendje ma t\u00eb keqe se ato, me dal me ju bo humor; bojshin pytje t\u00eb ndryshme, krejt i shihshe grat\u00eb, por kemi mrri deri k\u00ebtu me shum\u00eb mundim edhe nuk kthehem mas. Pra, gjithmon\u00eb historin\u00eb nuk guxojm\u00eb me e harru, t\u2019kalumen.<\/p>\n

V.K.: P\u00ebrve\u00e7 humbjes s\u00eb burrit, q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb humbje e madhe, a mundesh me na fol p\u00ebr humbjet e kujtimeve q\u00eb jan\u00eb djeg\u00eb gjat\u00eb luft\u00ebs?<\/p>\n

E: Pytje shum\u00eb me vend. Un\u00eb kom punu, p\u00ebrve\u00e7 Teatrit, un\u00eb kom punu edhe me radio kom shkrujt tekste t\u00eb ndryshme edhe me projekte humoristike e t\u2019gjitha ato. Un\u00eb kom pas\u00eb nj\u00eb numer t\u2019madh t\u00eb teksteve p\u00ebr radio, n\u00eb radio Gjakova, n\u00eb t\u2019gjitha radiot tjera q\u00eb i kom pas\u00eb t\u2019shkrume; fotografi pa num\u00ebr, i djegen t\u2019gjitha ato. Edhe tash, edhe sot kur t\u2019marrin me dal\u00eb n\u2019fotografi, nuk e kom at\u00eb vullnetin me pas\u00eb si arhiv\u00eb. Kemi pas\u00eb videokaseta t\u00eb in\u00e7izume e t\u2019gjitha ato q\u00eb kan\u00eb shku. Tash nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb faji im, mir\u00ebpo shum\u00eb vshtir\u00eb tash me fillu edhe nj\u00ebher\u00eb prej zeros. Fotografti\u00eb kah puna n\u2019teater jan\u00eb n\u2019arhiv\u00eb, edhe ato jan\u00eb humb krejt mbi pes\u00ebdhjet\u00eb p\u00ebrqind. Ato kan\u00eb qen\u00eb kujtime jasht\u00ebzakonisht t\u2019mira edhe tash mundemi ve\u00e7 me i p\u00ebrmend se nuk mundemi me i pa. Mu m\u2019vjen keq p\u00ebr fmijt q\u00eb nuk kan\u00eb mund\u00ebsin\u00eb me i pa rolet e sa fotografit\u00eb edhe t\u2019shfaqjeve edhe t\u00eb ndryshme. Por, jeta \u00ebsht\u00eb kjo, s\u2019kemi pas\u00eb qef me ndodh kjo luft\u00eb po ndodhi. E populli nuk ka faj asnj\u00ebher\u00eb, gjithmon\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb \u00e7ashtje e politikave q\u00eb e udh\u00ebheqin, e menaxhojn\u00eb edhe dasht\u00eb Zoti t\u00eb mos p\u00ebrs\u00ebritet te asnj\u00eb popull.<\/p>\n

V.K.: P\u00ebr humbjen e burrit si viktim\u00eb civile gjat\u00eb luftes, a keni pas\u00eb ndonj\u00eb beneficion ose mb\u00ebshtetje prej shtetit?<\/p>\n

E: Jo, masi e kom marr\u00eb \u00e7ertifikaten te mjeku at\u00ebher\u00eb, masi \u00ebsht\u00eb ba ekspertiza, \u00ebsht\u00eb dasht me u lajm\u00ebru n\u00eb Qend\u00ebr p\u00ebr Pun\u00eb Sociale. Edhe \u00ebsht\u00eb shpall\u00eb si viktim\u00eb civile edhe pse e dijshin q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb viktima e par\u00eb civile edhe shteti i jep 168 euro edhe asnj\u00eb beneficion tjet\u00ebr. \u00c7ashtja e shkollimit t\u00eb fmij\u00ebve, me pas\u00eb naj p\u00ebrpar\u00ebsi me u regjistru a, jo, jo, deri tash jo.<\/p>\n

V.K.: Si e sheh gjendjen nd\u00ebretnike mes serb\u00ebve dhe shqiptar\u00ebve q\u00eb jetojn\u00eb n\u00eb Kosov\u00eb?<\/p>\n

E: Na n\u2019Gjakov\u00eb nuk kemi, jasht\u00eb Gjakov\u00ebs ka serb\u00eb. Ata q\u00eb jan\u00eb, jan\u00eb. Gjeneratat e reja nuk kan\u00eb faj. Nuk e fajsoj popullin asniher\u00eb se i kam p\u00ebrcjell\u00eb lajmet e t\u2019gjitha ato. Populli s\u2019ka faj, un\u00eb thash edhe ma her\u00ebt, politika i ka fajet. Komplet politika, shtijn\u00eb grindje, p\u00ebr\u00e7arje. Nuk ki faj as ti as un\u00eb kur do me shku nes\u00ebr fmija jon\u00eb, pse \u00ebsht\u00eb shqiptar p\u00ebrshembull mos me pas\u00eb beneficione, mos me pas\u00eb asgja. Populli s\u2019ka faj, po thash edhe ma her\u00ebt ishalla nuk p\u00ebrs\u00ebriten, jo te na, po askund n\u00eb bot\u00eb.Paqja \u00ebsht\u00eb di\u00e7ka tjet\u00ebr, liria e fjal\u00ebs, liria e qenieve njer\u00ebzore, kemi t\u00eb drejt\u00eb gjithkund me jetu, gjith\u00e7ka mujm\u00eb me bo. Gjakova si Gjakov\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb pak ma karakteristike, ka pas\u00eb humbje jasht\u00ebzakonisht t\u00eb mdhaja, jan\u00eb njer\u00ebz q\u00eb i dijn\u00eb sakt\u00ebsisht kush kan\u00eb bo dame, se ai me ardh prej atjehit \u2013 prej fundit t\u00eb Serbis\u00eb, me ardh te ti ose te un\u00eb pa pas\u00eb dikon t\u2019ktuhit m\u2019i menaxhu me bo…Po edhe ata kan\u00eb pas\u00eb kurthe e fatkeq\u00ebsisht prej tyne e kemi prit gjithmon\u00eb, do me than\u00eb edhe ma p\u00ebrpara. Mir\u00ebpo, kur u kthym prej luftes ishin disa peripeti q\u00eb mu Gjakova asni tull\u00eb nuk ma ka jap\u00eb. Do me than\u00eb vet\u00eb, me forca t\u2019mija kom arrit\u00eb ni kulm me e bo sa me i strehu fmijt\u00eb. Edhe kemi pas\u00eb peripeti prej s\u00eb brendshmi. Ndoshta dikush knaqet me fatkeq\u00ebsi t\u00eb dikujt, mir\u00ebpo duhesh me i p\u00ebrballu t\u2019gjitha. Vet\u00ebm \u00e7ka shpalosen, e kan\u00eb hjek njerzt at\u00eb petkun q\u00eb e kan\u00eb pas\u00eb t\u2019mir\u00ebqenies e t\u2019gjitha ato. Mas luftes e hjeken petkun edhe dul ajo origjinalja. Fatkeq\u00ebsisht ka shum\u00eb asi lloj.<\/p>\n

V.K.:Sa v\u00ebshtir\u00eb, ose sa e rand ka qen\u00eb me vazhdu jeten masi q\u00eb jeni rikthy prej Shqip\u00ebris\u00eb?<\/p>\n

E: Po mjaft e v\u00ebshtire, mjaft e rand\u00eb. Tri vjet un\u00eb kam q\u00ebndru me ni banes\u00eb te gjyqi nalt n\u2019qytet. Banes\u00eb e huja, mir\u00ebpo mujsha me u strehu aty, m\u2019drejtun aty derisa e kom maru shpin\u00eb edhe \u00e7do dit\u00eb kom shku n\u2019oborr t\u2019shpis\u00eb aty ku e kan\u00eb vra burrin e t\u2019gjitha ato. \u00cbsht\u00eb shum\u00eb e vshtir\u00eb, mir\u00ebpo duhet me gjet\u00eb forc\u00eb. Se un\u00eb e di X raste q\u00eb thojn\u00eb nuk muj me kalu nga ajo rrug\u00eb, po, jo jo, ti duhesh me tejkalu ata. Edhe e kom tejkalu, pa ndihmen e ndonj\u00eb psikologu a di\u00e7ka se na q\u00eb thash ku kemi shku ka pas\u00eb psikolog\u00eb t\u00eb ndrysh\u00ebm. Kur jom ul\u00eb, kom bisedu edhe mu m\u2019kan\u00eb pyet a ke bisedu a ke punu me dikon. Jo, ti duhesh me punu me vetveten, ti duhesh me dit\u00eb ku ke me jetu, ti ke me i rrit\u00eb fmijt\u00eb, fmijt\u00eb nuk kan\u00eb faj \u2013 me ato kushte q\u00eb i kom. Aq sa i kom, se un\u00eb a s\u2019kom mujt me dal a me vjedh a me dal rrug\u00eb pa rrug\u00eb a… Do me than\u00eb me ato mund\u00ebsit\u00eb e mija \u00e7ka kom pas\u00eb un\u00eb kom arrit\u00eb me i rrit fmijt\u00eb. Sot vajza i ka 25, djali i ka 24 vje\u00e7. Mandej muj me than\u00eb q\u00eb, mentaliteti jon\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb vshtir\u00eb, kur fmija shkon n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb, si vajza si djali, kur e dijn\u00eb shokt e shoqet e klas\u00ebs q\u00eb ata nuk e kan\u00eb prindin, e kan\u00eb t\u2019humbun… Se un\u00eb personalisht kur kam qen\u00eb n\u2019mosh\u00ebn 5 vje\u00e7are m\u2019ka vdek\u00eb baba. Edhe, nuk ka qen\u00eb e leht\u00eb, do me than\u00eb nana e lun rolin edhe t\u2019burrit edhe t\u2019grus. Nuk ka qen\u00eb e leht\u00eb as p\u00ebr mu edhe t\u2019kujtohet n\u2019moment qysh je rrit\u00eb ti. Po at\u00ebher\u00eb pak ma ndryshe ka qen\u00eb. N\u2019situaten kur hijn\u00eb fmijt\u00eb n\u2019shkoll\u00eb, n\u2019shkoll\u00ebn ku i kom pas\u00eb un\u00eb fmijt\u00eb (Emri i shkoll\u00ebs nuk d\u00ebgjohet), ka pas\u00eb shum\u00eb raste t\u2019viktimave civile. Do me than\u00eb n\u2019secilen klas\u00eb muj me than\u00eb q\u00eb kan\u00eb qen\u00eb dy ose tre fmij\u00eb pa bab\u00eb. Edhe krejt varet qysh ju shpjegon fmijve. Un\u00eb thash \u00e7ika ka qen\u00eb n\u2019klasen e par\u00eb, djali hala nuk kish fillu n\u2019shkoll\u00eb, edhe ju kom shpjegu situata e luftes, jo te na, po gjithkun n\u2019bot\u00eb ku t\u00eb ndodh\u00eb lufta, damet e luftes, pasojat e luftes. Edhe dyqysh kan\u00eb qen\u00eb ma t\u2019p\u00ebrgatitun edhe psiqikisht edhe shum\u00eb ma t\u2019fort\u00eb. N\u2019momentin kur dikush i ka pyt p\u00ebrshembull ku e ki baben, ata kan\u00eb than\u00eb q\u00eb baben na e kan\u00eb vra n\u2019luft\u00eb. Do me than\u00eb kan\u00eb qen\u00eb t\u2019p\u00ebrgatitun, e kan\u00eb p\u00ebrballu ma leht\u00eb. Edhe un\u00eb vazhdimisht ju tregoj, edhe p\u00ebr baben e vet edhe gjithmon\u00eb folim qysh duhet me p\u00ebrballu jeten se nuk i duhet kurr\u00eb. Un\u00eb sot jom, mas 5 minutave muj mos me qen\u00eb, ata duhet me menaxhu edhe me jetu. K\u00ebshtuq\u00eb nuk munesh me llogarit\u00eb k\u00ebrkun, duhet me forca tuja gjithkun. Masi shteti deri tash nuk na ka ndihmu, tash nuk po di \u00e7ka me than\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. Se ka pas\u00eb nevoj\u00eb edhe ka pas\u00eb dallime t\u00eb ndryshme. Ka pas\u00eb organizime, disa shkolla verore. Paramendo kom shku me i \u00e7u fmijt\u00eb n\u00eb shkolla verore, se edhe vet\u00eb isha pa pun\u00eb. Tash n\u2019momentin q\u00eb fmijt\u00eb e mi kan\u00eb pas\u00eb nevoj\u00eb, edhe fmijt\u00eb e shum\u00eb tjerave q\u00eb nuk e kan\u00eb pas\u00eb baben kan\u00eb pas\u00eb nevoj\u00eb me shku aty, nuk i kan\u00eb marr\u00eb. I kan\u00eb marr\u00eb fmijt\u00eb e atyne q\u00eb i kan\u00eb \u00e7u me xhipa. Aty u kan\u00eb katastrofa ma e madhja. Fatmir\u00ebsisht un\u00eb kom shku, edhe kan\u00eb than\u00eb edhe ti e ke pru djalin k\u2019tu a, s\u2019e ka venin djali yt k\u2019tu, ka fmij\u00eb plot tjer\u00eb. Po keqp\u00ebrdorime t\u2019jasht\u00ebzakonshme kan\u00eb ndodh\u00eb, fatkeq\u00ebsisht, nuk e di…<\/p>\n

V.K.: A sheh p\u00ebrmir\u00ebsim n\u00eb t\u00eb ardhmen e af\u00ebrt p\u00ebr luften q\u00eb ka ndodh\u00eb para 23 viteve?<\/p>\n

E: Vitet ecin, kalojn\u00eb, un\u00eb thash edhe ma heret, populli asniher\u00eb nuk ka faj. Un\u00eb vet\u00eb e kom mbrojt\u00eb shtat\u00ebzanin edhe e kom lind djalin n\u00eb Beograd. Mjek\u00ebsia do me than\u00eb nuk ka pas\u00eb dallime, un\u00eb pse jam shqiptare, ka pas\u00eb komunitete t\u00eb ndryshme n\u2019spital. Na jemi trajtu si pacient\u00eb. Jeta vazhdon edhe atje ka qen\u00eb n\u00eb \u201997-t\u00ebn situata jasht\u00ebzakonisht e ran\u00eb. Politika i ka fajet. E, duhet me pas\u00eb, mir\u00ebpo na i dijm\u00eb disa gjana, mos t\u00eb hyjm\u00eb kah politika se as vet\u00eb nuk e du. Mir\u00ebpo ka dame jasht\u00ebzakonisht t\u00eb mdhaja. S\u00eb paku k\u00ebrkim falja n\u2019mnyr\u00eb institucionale, ajo i mbulon shum\u00eb dhimbje. Edhe derisa t\u00eb dalin k\u00ebta q\u00eb jan\u00eb t\u2019zhdukun, se kemi nj\u00eb num\u00ebr jasht\u00ebzakonisht t\u2019madh. \u00cbsht\u00eb barr\u00eb, \u00ebsht\u00eb barr\u00eb e madhe p\u00ebr ata njer\u00ebz q\u00eb nuk e dijn\u00eb as varrin ku e kan\u00eb. Ose tek e fundit le t\u00eb thojn\u00eb i kemi djeg\u00eb, i kemi vra, i kemi ba kshtu, edhe pajtohesh me ata \u2013 nuk pajtohesh po s\u2019ki \u00e7ka bon. E, \u00ebsht\u00eb pak hir. Ndoshta munet me fol dikush q\u00eb nuk ka, edhe pse aktivitet kulturore e gjitha ato mbahen, nd\u00ebretnike, mbahen aktivitete, ekspozita t\u00eb ndryshme kah arti, kah krejt ato, mir\u00ebpo k\u00ebrkim falja \u00ebsht\u00eb kapaku \u2013 publike. \u00cbsht\u00eb e domosdoshme, p\u00ebr me dasht me ju zbut\u00eb dhimbjen atyne nanave. Un\u00eb p\u00ebr fat, n\u2019mes fatkeq\u00ebsis\u00eb e ki edhe pak fat. Un\u00eb e kom pas at\u00eb grimcen e fatit se kemi arrit\u00eb tek me 28 me e varros. Do me than\u00eb mas kat\u00ebr dit\u00ebve; 24 \u2013 28. Edhe e di ku e ka vorrin, edhe m\u00ebrzitesh kaniher\u00eb, lyp me shku deri te vorri, ja \u00e7on ni lule a ni di\u00e7ka. Ato q\u00eb nuk e dijn\u00eb as ku e kan\u00eb, ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb e ran\u00eb. Un\u00eb po flas n\u2019aspektin si nan\u00eb, s\u2019po flas si Elid\u00eb, un\u00eb po flas si nan\u00eb. Do me than\u00eb mu ma kan\u00eb vra burrin, un\u00eb i kom fmijt\u00eb. Lufta, kan\u00eb mujt edhe te dyt\u00eb, se shum\u00eb shpesh un\u00eb e ceki, e kah kom kalu un\u00eb prej 24 marsit, vetem njeni prej fmijve m\u2019pas\u00eb shp\u00ebtu, un\u00eb kisha me qen\u00eb e lumtur.S\u2019ka pas\u00eb siguri n\u00eb asni moment deri kur jemi dal\u00eb n\u2019Shqipni. K\u00ebshtuq\u00eb un\u00eb i kom fmijt\u00eb, eci p\u00ebrpara, po ato nana q\u00eb nuk e kan\u00eb asnjenin prej fmijve edhe nuk e dijn\u00eb vorrin, ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb e ran\u00eb, shum\u00eb e ran\u00eb. Duhet secili me u nis\u00eb prej vetvetes. N\u00ebse ti ki mi pas\u00eb at\u00eb rast, a thu qysh kishe reagu, a thu qysh kishe vepru. E qeveria jon\u00eb nuk ka bo kurgjo deri tash. Jon\u00eb nd\u00ebrru qeverit\u00eb, po nuk kan\u00eb bo. Un\u00eb shpesh thom, ata nuk kan\u00eb pas\u00eb t\u2019prekun n\u2019rrethin e ngusht\u00eb t\u2019familjes, nuk ja dijn\u00eb dhimten. Ka than\u00eb Nastradini p\u00ebrpara \u201cle t\u2019vjen ai me m\u2019pa q\u00eb u rrzu prej dardhes\u201d. Do t\u00eb thot\u00eb, nuk po du me i mbrojt\u00eb, edhe k\u2019to nanat kan\u00eb t\u2019drejt\u00eb, po s\u2019paku duhet m\u2019i pas\u00eb ni p\u00ebrgjigje t\u2019sakt\u00eb, ose eshtnat m\u2019i pas\u00eb m\u2019i rivarros dikun, e jan\u00eb procedura tjera se e ran\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb, shum\u00eb vshtir\u00eb.<\/p>\n

V.K.: Un\u00eb t\u2019falenderoj p\u00ebr koh\u00ebn dhe p\u00ebr mund\u00ebsin\u00eb q\u00eb na tregove historni\u00eb tane.<\/p>\n

E: Falemnderit p\u00ebr ftesen! Un\u00eb jam n\u2019gjendje gatishm\u00ebrie n\u2019\u00e7do koh\u00eb q\u00eb ju duhem, p\u00ebr biseda ma gjan\u00ebsisht, p\u00ebr detaje t\u2019vogla, p\u00ebr t\u2019gjitha ato. Po masi \u00ebsht\u00eb koha e limitune ndoshta edhe kjo mjafton.<\/p>\n

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[vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text] [\/vc_column_text][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text] V.K.: P\u00ebrshendetje, a munesh me n\u2019au prezantu? E: Po, patjet\u00ebr.Un\u00eb jam Elida Shasivari, jam nan\u00eb e dy fmij\u00ebve. Isha e martuar me t\u00eb ndjerin Kujtim Dulen. Jam aktore me profesion.Kam lind n\u00eb Gjakov\u00eb dhe jetoj ende n\u00eb Gjakov\u00eb.Jam pun\u00ebtore, aktore n\u00eb Teatrin e qytetit t\u00eb Gjakov\u00ebs. V.K.: A mundesh me na tregu historin\u00eb […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":1003,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[22],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1481"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1481"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1481\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1485,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1481\/revisions\/1485"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1003"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1481"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1481"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1481"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}