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Rrefim nga Orgesa Arifi<\/p>\n

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OA:Periudha mas luft\u00ebs n\u00eb Prishtin\u00eb, n\u00eb Arb\u00ebri, lagjen ku kom jetu, p\u00ebr mu ka qen\u00eb shum\u00eb e lezetshme, jom\u00eb kan\u00eb e vog\u00ebl.<\/p>\n

Brengat qa kam mujt me i pas kan\u00eb qen\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00eb 5vje\u00e7ares, pak para luft\u00ebs qat\u00eb here.<\/p>\n

Brengat mas andej kan\u00eb fillu prej ikjes prej shpis\u00eb, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb paralufta p\u00ebr mu o kan\u00eb, p\u00ebrkufizohet me nj\u00eb fjali, ose me nj\u00eb loj\u00eb e cila quhet msheftas, q\u00eb e kena lujt bajagi shum\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Kthimi p\u00ebr shpi normalisht o kan\u00eb shum\u00eb i m\u00ebrzitsh\u00ebm, po edhe shum\u00eb depresiv, p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb m\u00eb duket jam prezantu me m\u00ebrzin\u00eb q\u00eb dikur i kishe 3 preh\u00ebn q\u00eb flejshe p\u00ebrmi ta, e tash mo krejt venin mrapa e kisha p\u00ebr vete, po prap\u00eb nuk u nijsha e sigurt edhe nuk u nisha e lumtur p\u00ebr shkak se nuk e disha ku jan\u00eb vllau edhe motrat.<\/p>\n

Njon\u00ebn prej storjeve interesante, ose ma si highlight e kisha quajt gjat\u00eb kthimit n\u00eb Prishtin\u00eb ka qen\u00eb fakti q\u00eb prind e mi gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebn kan\u00eb l\u00ebviz\u00eb edhe kan\u00eb sh\u00ebtit\u00eb n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb me i jep nj\u00eb p\u00ebrshtypje paramilitar\u00ebve qe na jena familje shum\u00eb e normalizume me faktin q\u00eb ka luft\u00eb n\u00eb Kosov\u00eb, edhe demek nuk na len\u00eb p\u00ebrshtypje.<\/p>\n

Domethon\u00eb ajo ka qen\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb instikti k\u00ebshtu p\u00ebr me mbijetu, edhe thjesht p\u00ebr me u bo pothuajse ti je nj\u00eb nga ta.<\/p>\n

Prindt e mi e kan\u00eb fol gjuh\u00ebn serbe rrjedhsh\u00ebm normalisht, p\u00ebr shkak t\u00eb edukimit t\u00eb tyre edhe kushteve at\u00ebher\u00eb q\u00eb kan\u00eb qen\u00eb, mir\u00ebpo nj\u00ebr\u00ebn prej dit\u00ebve un\u00eb me prind tu shku me e taku nj\u00eb kojshi…<\/p>\n

N\u00eb fakt harrova me cek\u00eb edhe nj\u00eb sen, n\u00eb Arb\u00ebri, n\u00eb lagjen ku ne kemi jetu kemi qen\u00eb t\u00eb rrethum\u00eb prej familjeve serbe ku un\u00eb, realisht shoqja e par\u00eb e ngusht\u00eb ka qen\u00eb serbe Zhana. Edhe ajo, edhe un\u00eb jemi marr\u00eb vesh diqysh, sepse Zhana ka dit\u00eb me fol\u00eb shqip, edhe un\u00eb kom dit\u00eb pak serbisht e k\u00ebshtu me radh\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Nj\u00eb prej ngjarjeve ma trondit\u00ebse q\u00eb i kam p\u00ebrjetu kur jam kthy n\u00eb Kosov\u00eb mas Bllac\u00ebs o kan\u00eb, nj\u00eb dit\u00eb un\u00eb dal\u00eb me lujt\u00eb me Zhan\u00ebn, edhe at\u00ebher\u00eb normalisht q\u00eb fillun k\u00ebto mend\u00ebsia jeme me ndrru masi q\u00eb e pash\u00eb sa po hjekin njer\u00ebzit edhe qysh po gjuhen bombat ashtu thu t’i na jena kafsh\u00eb, edhe kontrrolla e paramilitar\u00ebve, d\u00ebbimi i gjith\u00eb neve.<\/p>\n

Edhe nj\u00eb dit\u00eb prej dit\u00ebsh, mami e v\u00ebren n\u00eb gazet\u00ebn Koha Ditore, ku n\u00eb t\u00eb si gjithmon\u00eb q\u00eb i kan\u00eb pas k\u00ebto kolumnet kryesore, nj\u00ebra prej fotografive \u00ebsht\u00eb e shkarravitur, gati gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebn edhe un\u00eb si e vog\u00ebl nuk kom dit\u00eb me e v\u00ebrejt fytyr\u00ebn e Bill Klintonit edhe Millosheviqit.<\/p>\n

Nuk e di pse i kom ngat\u00ebrru, nashta q\u00eb t\u00eb dyt\u00eb pleq, flokt\u00eb e bardha apo, prap\u00eb Bill Klintoni ma i holl\u00eb ka qen\u00eb po sidoqoft\u00eb nuk kom dit\u00eb me i dallu n\u00eb disa momente, edhe njona prej pyetjeve q\u00eb ja pata shtru Zhan\u00ebs ka qen\u00eb cili \u00ebsht\u00eb, edhe ajo ka bo me gisht te Bill Klintoni, demek ky \u00ebsht\u00eb Millosheviqi edhe un\u00eb qashtu e shkaravis Bill Klintonin.<\/p>\n

Edhe mami ni dit e merr Koh\u00ebn me lexu edhe m\u00eb thot\u00eb pse je tu e shkarravit\u00eb Bill Klintonin kshtu, un\u00eb spo t\u2019kuptoj edhe mes tu e k\u00ebqyr, ve\u00e7 pak qyky osht Bill Klintoni a? Edhe tash koha e hakmarrjes, un\u00eb shkoj me thirr Zhan\u00ebn me dal me lujt\u00eb, edhe i tham e kam ni ide, pe lujm\u00eb ni loj\u00eb un\u00eb po e gjuj k\u00ebt\u00eb drunin sa ma larg\u00eb edhe kush e merr e para fiton, okej, fillojm\u00eb bohmi gati e marrim pozicionin edhe n\u00eb momentin q\u00eb po dojna me l\u00ebviz\u00eb me ngajt\u00eb un\u00eb si nj\u00eb fmi i t\u00ebrbun\u00eb n\u00ebse muj me than\u00eb, edhe fort\u00eb nervoz mas krejt\u00eb atyre ngjarjeve q\u00eb i kisha pa e i kisha nd\u00ebgju ja qes kam\u00ebn Zhan\u00ebs, edhe Zhana bjen shum\u00eb keq edhe e vran\u00eb gunin i qet gjak, edhe un\u00eb filloj masndej me i b\u00ebrtit qa e kshtu kur ti mu m\u00eb rren pa nevoj\u00eb, pse e ke bo?<\/p>\n

Ajo nuk fol\u00eb kurgjo, edhe normalisht kom ik\u00eb menj\u00ebher\u00eb te shpia edhe kom fillu me reflektu edhe e kom pa q\u00eb kom gabu shum\u00eb, t\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen, sepse at\u00ebher\u00eb ish von\u00eb, nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb q\u00eb mu ka leju me dal\u00eb n\u00eb \u00e7far\u00ebdo ore q\u00eb kom dasht\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Edhe kom nejt\u00eb ve\u00e7 p\u00ebrpara shpis\u00eb k\u00ebrkun ma larg asni centimeter, edhe po shkoj t\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen me thirr Zhan\u00ebn, edhe me i k\u00ebrku falje. E maj men\u00eb e kom pas nj\u00eb k\u00ebmish\u00eb t\u00eb bardh\u00eb, jak\u00ebn e cila mami gjithmon\u00eb ma ka vnu kur kom dal\u00eb prej shpis\u00eb edhe nj\u00eb fun, me katror\u00eb kuq e zi sikur kto funat, uniformat e Sami Frash\u00ebrit q\u00eb i kena pas.<\/p>\n

Edhe un\u00eb e thirri Zhana, Zhana p\u00ebr me dal\u00eb edhe me fol, edhe del halla e Zhanes, edhe ajo m\u00eb thot\u00eb t\u00eb lutem shko n\u00eb shpi se nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb Zhana ktu, edhe un\u00eb ja kthej e di q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb edhe e di q\u00eb kom gabu, po p\u00ebrnime po du me i k\u00ebrku falje, t\u00eb lutem thuj le t\u00eb del\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Edhe qishtu nja 3-4 her\u00eb insitoj, ajo shko t\u00eb lutna shko, edhe nj\u00eb moment un\u00eb e qoj kryt\u00eb nalt\u00eb, edhe e shoh q\u00eb dikush ma ka drejtu nj\u00eb allti edhe bajagi t\u00eb madhe, edhe n\u00eb at\u00eb moment e di q\u00eb m\u00eb jan\u00eb shtang\u00eb kambt\u00eb, edhe kam fillu me u njersit\u00eb edhe ve\u00e7 e kom ul\u00eb kryt\u00eb edhe kom vazhdu, nuk m\u00eb kujtohet a kom fillu me u lut\u00eb mos me m\u00eb gjujt\u00eb ose mos me ba naj dram\u00eb pa nevoj\u00eb, mir\u00ebpo pshtova.<\/p>\n

Kjo, prej asaj kohe ma nuk e kom pa as nuk kom ni p\u00ebr shoqen teme t\u00eb ngusht\u00eb Zhanen, e cila po besoj q\u00eb kam marr\u00eb nj\u00eb m\u00ebsim t\u00eb madh edhe jam tregu bajagi e frustrume prej \u00e7ka kom pa e \u00e7ka kom d\u00ebgju.<\/p>\n

Rasti tjet\u00ebr, ky rast \u00ebsht\u00eb pak m\u00eb serioz, kam qen\u00eb duke shku me e taku nj\u00eb kojshi, ai ka qen\u00eb me prejardhje boshnjake, nd\u00ebrsa grun\u00eb taman t\u00eb Bosnj\u00ebs.<\/p>\n

Gjat\u00eb ecjes ton\u00eb, un\u00eb kom qen\u00eb e dyta, dometh\u00ebn\u00eb babi ka qen\u00eb i pari, un\u00eb e dyta, mami e treta. Edhe n\u00eb nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb duke ec\u00eb, dometh\u00ebn\u00eb n\u00eb lagjen Arb\u00ebria i d\u00ebgjojm\u00eb disa zhurma t\u00eb kerreve ose xhipave qe nuk i kisha ni ma her\u00ebt edhe ndalen ata me nj\u00eb pjes\u00eb, edhe babi m\u00eb thot\u00eb kryt\u00eb posht\u00eb mos gabo me k\u00ebqyr, edhe premtom\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019i k\u00ebqyr\u00eb, po normal nj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00eb kurioz, super e vet\u00ebdijshme \u00e7ka po ndodh\u00eb nuk mundesh me bind\u00eb me nj\u00eb fjali t\u00eb till\u00eb, edhe e qoj kryt\u00eb i k\u00ebqyri ata ushtar\u00ebt, ose paramilitar\u00eb ose nuk di \u00e7ka me i thirr.<\/p>\n

Kan\u00eb qen\u00eb me disa uniforma pak\u00eb m\u00eb ndryshe se q\u00eb i kisha pa p\u00ebr \u00e7do dit\u00eb, disa uniforma t\u00eb nuancave teget, kalt\u00ebr, bardh\u00eb, hint\u00eb, t\u00eb ngjyrosur bajagi \u00e7uditsh\u00ebm, stila t\u00eb flok\u00ebve shum\u00eb t\u00eb \u00e7uditsh\u00ebm, si me kan\u00eb naj spot i Britni Spirsit, shum\u00eb e kan\u00eb pas stilin e flok\u00ebve \u00e7uditsh\u00ebm.<\/p>\n

Edhe ata fillun menj\u00ebher\u00eb me bastis nj\u00eb shpi, po na pshtum\u00eb, edhe kemi hi mrena te shpia e kti kojshiut axh\u00ebs Nexh\u00eb edhe, babi meniher\u00eb drejt\u00eb te ai edhe po i thot\u00eb hajde menihere n\u00eb podrum se nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb puna mir\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Edhe m\u00eb kujtohet ai u qu prej gjumit t\u00eb mas dit\u00ebs edhe po thot\u00eb jo bre Xhem mos u tut se une po i njoh tash kta, po e qel perden edhe kadale po mundohet me mbyll\u00eb edhe me ja fut\u00eb sprint me ngajt\u00eb, shum\u00eb shum\u00eb shpejt\u00eb q\u00eb me shku n\u00eb podrum. Edhe m\u00eb kujtohet e ka pas nj\u00eb duks t\u00eb kuq, prej jashtit kish mujt\u00eb me u v\u00ebrejt\u00eb bajagi.<\/p>\n

Ata paramilitar\u00eb kan\u00eb qen\u00eb nd\u00ebr forcat m\u00eb t\u00eb rrezikshme q\u00eb kan\u00eb nejt\u00eb n\u00eb Kosov\u00eb, ata kan\u00eb qen\u00eb nj\u00eb grupacion q\u00eb fat\u00ebmir\u00ebsisht\u00eb, p\u00ebr fatin ton\u00eb arsyeja e pshtimit ka qen\u00eb alkooli, se ata nuk e kan\u00eb pas\u00eb mendjen kerkun tjet\u00ebr pos me e gjet nj\u00eb depo me alkool, edhe tash si e rritur e kuptoj se kan dasht\u00eb thjesht\u00eb me e kalu koh\u00ebn diqysh, edhe shumica prej tyre jan kan\u00eb alkooliqar, edhe ne si prioritet i kena l\u00ebviz\u00eb pak edhe normalisht\u00eb q\u00eb p\u00ebr fat t\u00eb mir\u00eb pshtum\u00eb.<\/p>\n

K\u00ebshtuq\u00eb, pas gati 20 vjete kur jam taku me nj\u00eb gazetar, m\u00ebnyr\u00ebn qysh ja kom p\u00ebrshkru kta paramilitar\u00eb, ai ka qen\u00eb gazetar anglez q\u00eb i ka mbulu storjet e Kosov\u00ebs gjat\u00eb luft\u00ebs, edhe m\u00eb ka tregu q\u00eb sipas fakteve t\u00eb mia, n\u00ebse e mbaj\u00eb mend sakt\u00eb, edhe pse un\u00eb mendoj q\u00eb po, ata kan\u00eb qen\u00eb paramilitar\u00ebt m\u00eb t\u00eb rreziksh\u00ebm ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb, edhe me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb m\u00eb ka \u00e7udit\u00eb se ai thojke se \u00ebsht\u00eb shum\u00eb befasi e madhe, q\u00eb ju kan\u00eb kursye pa disa pluma.<\/p>\n

Se secili ka qen\u00eb i armatosur, edhe secili ka qen\u00eb ma nervoz se tjetri, edhe p\u00ebr qat\u00eb arsye hala kanihere menoj qysh i kemi pshtu, domethan\u00eb qaq kan\u00eb qen\u00eb t\u00eb koncentrum me thy shpia t\u00eb tilla q\u00eb kan\u00eb qen\u00eb t\u00eb pasura n\u00eb thojza me alkool, saq\u00eb ju kemi pshtu prej momentit edhe kemi pshtu.<\/p>\n

Largimi prej shpis\u00eb ka qen\u00eb i pritun edhe prej an\u00ebs tem, edhe pse kam qen\u00eb e vog\u00ebl.<\/p>\n

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Ndjenja e asaj pritjes ka qen\u00eb e p\u00ebrkufizume prej teshave t\u00eb veshuna edhe gjat\u00eb nat\u00ebs, n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb edhe n\u00ebse di\u00e7ka ka ndodh\u00eb, ve\u00e7 me i math\u00eb k\u00ebpuc\u00ebt edhe me ik\u00eb, me vazhdu diku tjet\u00ebr.<\/p>\n

M\u00eb kujtohet kemi qen\u00eb t\u00eb dy motrat e mia edhe v\u00ebllau me prind. Domethan\u00eb ishim 6 persona n\u00eb vetur\u00eb, nj\u00eb Jugo e kuqe, e kemi pas, edhe un\u00eb kisha nevoj\u00eb me flejt\u00eb edhe zakonisht kom flejt\u00eb rrug\u00ebs.<\/p>\n

Por m\u00eb kujtohet edhe sot e maj\u00eb mend rrug\u00ebs p\u00ebr Shkup, dometh\u00ebn\u00eb kemi planifiku me shku n\u00eb Shkup, edhe rrug\u00ebs anej\u00eb ka Ka\u00e7aniku kan\u00eb qen\u00eb disa pjes\u00eb ku muri i rrug\u00ebve ka qen\u00eb me gur\u00ebzi t\u00eb m\u00ebdhenj, q\u00eb e kujtoj edhe e shoh shpesh n\u00eb filma, q\u00eb b\u00ebhen p\u00ebr luft\u00eb, edhe pastaj 6 dit\u00eb edhe net\u00eb n\u00eb Bllac\u00eb, ku p\u00ebr mu kan\u00eb qen\u00eb prap\u00eb interesant, nuk kam ndi shqet\u00ebsim, mu ka duk\u00eb thjesht\u00eb nj\u00eb aventur\u00eb e radh\u00ebs, edhe e mir\u00eb, e nevojshme p\u00ebr shkak se krejt familja jemi ba bashk\u00eb edhe kemi shpenzu koh\u00eb, energji edhe krejt\u00eb brengat pa i nda me k\u00ebrkon tjet\u00ebr, ve\u00e7 me nj\u00ebri-tjetrin.<\/p>\n

Bllaca p\u00ebr mu u kan\u00eb nj\u00eb prej pervojave m\u00eb t\u00eb \u00e7uditshme, p\u00ebr arsye se aty kam pa kamiona ku kan\u00eb gjujt\u00eb ushqim prej p\u00ebr gjith\u00eb ata q\u00eb kan\u00eb prit\u00eb me vetura, pastaj qumshitn m\u00eb kujtohet n\u00eb Tetrapak t\u00eb vog\u00ebl, bukt\u00eb e mdhaja, pashteta \u00e7ka do konserv\u00eb q\u00eb ka pas. Edhe k\u00ebshtu personalisht e kom v\u00ebrejt\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb ka p\u00eblqy shum\u00eb qajo!<\/p>\n

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Po du me nda me juve edhe nj\u00eb storje interesant, kur gjat\u00eb dit\u00ebve n\u00eb Bllac\u00eb e shoh nj\u00eb shoqe t\u00eb \u00e7erdhes, ose foshnjores edhe un\u00eb kisha shum\u00eb nevoj\u00eb me shku deri n\u00eb tualet, edhe kur e takova ajo m\u00eb tha un\u00eb e di ni ven, hajde me mu edhe tash prej pjes\u00ebs s\u00eb Bllac\u00ebs q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb tep\u00ebr posht\u00eb kemi hyp\u00eb bajagi nalt\u00eb ku \u00ebsht\u00eb tash\u00eb Dogana, ose jo dogana po Kufini i Kosov\u00ebs e Maqedonis\u00eb. Edhe un\u00eb i kom kry punt\u00eb e mia, jam kthy kadal kadale mrena te kerri, kur \u00e7ka me pa mamit tem ju kish ba ftyra e bardh\u00eb sikur qeky muri tash p\u00ebr momentin qe jem tu e kqyr.<\/p>\n

Edhe pa prit\u00eb pa kujtu edhe m\u00eb merr ma sht\u00ebrngon dor\u00ebn edhe prap\u00eb un\u00eb nuk e di pse, edhe ajo ja nis me m\u00eb kallxu sa \u00ebsht\u00eb e shqet\u00ebsume, pak edhe me m\u00eb b\u00ebrtit\u00eb edhe prap\u00eb pa asnj\u00eb ide fillova me kuptu shqet\u00ebsimin edhe brengen e saj q\u00eb e ka pas\u00eb ato 10-15 minuta q\u00eb nuk m\u00eb ka pa. Se un\u00eb nuk i mora leje p\u00ebr shkak se un\u00eb po shkoj n\u00eb tualet, jam e madhe mjaftuesh\u00ebm q\u00eb mos me u frigu edhe nuk m\u00eb ndodh\u00eb kurgja.<\/p>\n

Masnej net\u00ebt u bojshin shum\u00eb t\u00eb ftoft\u00eb n\u00eb Bllac\u00eb, m\u00eb kujtohet q\u00eb babi kryt\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb e ka pushu n\u00eb vollonin e kerrit, edhe kanj\u00ebhere kerri nuk u dhezke edhe m\u00eb kujtohen 2 momente kur ai i merr disa shrafa nuk e di \u00e7ka bon edhe dhezet dikur kerri.<\/p>\n

P\u00ebr mu si 5 vje\u00e7are, ose 6, 5 e gjysm\u00eb faktikisht ka qen\u00eb pak m\u00eb mir\u00eb se un\u00eb kam flejt\u00eb n\u00eb prehnit e 2 motrave edhe vllaut, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb pas disa dit\u00ebve mami edhe babi vendosin q\u00eb vllau edhe dy motrat, pasi q\u00eb ato ishin ma t\u00eb mdhaja edhe normal q\u00eb ka qen\u00eb shum\u00eb frik\u00eb e madhe me u kthy me vajza n\u00eb Prishtin\u00eb.<\/p>\n

P\u00ebr shkak se kemi d\u00ebgju shum\u00eb e shum\u00eb raste t\u00eb p\u00ebrdhunimeve t\u00eb grave, e vajzave shum\u00eb t\u00eb reja. Edhe p\u00ebrpos asaj, motra e dyt\u00eb prap\u00eb i ka pas\u00eb flokt\u00eb e shkurta po motra e dyt\u00eb ka qen\u00eb shum\u00eb ma femrore edhe zanin e ka pas ma femror, bile bile e ka hala k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb patjet\u00ebr se jan\u00eb angazhu q\u00eb t\u00eb tret\u00eb mos me vazhdu me u kthy, po me vazhdu n\u00eb Maqedoni, pas largimit t\u00eb motrave dhe vllaut p\u00ebr n\u00eb Maqedoni, m\u00eb konkretisht n\u00eb Gostivar, e di q\u00eb p\u00ebr Gostivar jan\u00eb nis\u00eb, te motra e madhe, se ajo ve\u00e7 e kish\u00eb, ka qen\u00eb e martume edhe ka shku me familjen e burrit.<\/p>\n

Ne u kthym n\u00eb Prishtin\u00eb.<\/p>\n

Lufta p\u00ebr mu ka pas shum\u00eb efekte, nashta prej faktit q\u00eb kanihere e shoh prap\u00eb veten si e kam pak problem kur m\u00eb bjen me nejt vet\u00eb, ve\u00e7 prej faktit q\u00eb bajagi ka qen\u00eb traumatizuese kur motrat edhe vllau vendos\u00ebn prind\u00ebrit q\u00eb ata me shku, masndej e di q\u00eb e kom pas nj\u00eb efekt t\u00eb menj\u00ebhersh\u00ebm kur jemi kthy n\u00eb Kosov\u00eb, nuk kom mujt\u00eb me urinu dikun 1 jav\u00eb prej stresit t\u00eb akumulum, nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb q\u00eb e kom ni veten t\u00eb stresume po, m\u00eb falni. Mir\u00ebpo normalisht n\u00ebn dije ka reagu diqysh edhe m\u00eb ka dal\u00eb n\u00eb qasi m\u00ebnyre.<\/p>\n

Frik\u00eb, kur i kam ba 23 vjet jam prezantu taman me Panic Attacs, edhe m\u00ebnyra se qysh manifestohet Panic Attack e kam v\u00ebrejt q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb prej zhurmave t\u00eb cilat nuk i parashikoj, t\u00eb marr nj\u00eb shembull nj\u00eb petard\u00eb pe shoh, q\u00eb o ka don me k\u00ebrcit, e parashikoj zhurm\u00ebn q\u00eb ka me bo, mir\u00ebpo n\u00ebse ajo m\u00eb k\u00ebrset mbrapa meje, \u00ebsht\u00eb thjesht\u00eb nj\u00eb lloj stresi i pap\u00ebrshkruesh\u00ebm q\u00eb manifestohet mandej me marramendje, me dur\u00eb t\u00eb njersitura, pulsin e nalt\u00eb, tensionin e ulur etj etj.<\/p>\n

Edhe e kom v\u00ebrejt q\u00eb gjat\u00eb bombardimeve ku kam qen\u00eb prezent\u00eb n\u00eb Prishtin\u00eb m\u00eb kujtohet kur u bombardu Posta, edhe pse nana gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebn m\u00eb thojke jo jan\u00eb petard\u00eb, nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb tu ndodh\u00eb kurgjo un\u00eb as spo ni, ve\u00e7 po t\u00eb duket, e disha edhe vet \u00e7ka osht tu ndodh\u00eb se zhurma ka qen\u00eb tej mase e madhe, edhe prej Dragodanit gjith\u00e7ka \u00ebsht\u00eb pa.<\/p>\n

K\u00ebshtu q\u00eb, efekte psi\u00e7ike definitivisht kam\u00eb, p\u00ebr fat t\u00eb mir\u00eb fizike nuk kam.<\/p>\n

Edhe jam shum\u00eb e bindur q\u00eb me kalimin e koh\u00ebs shum\u00eb e shum\u00eb personave\/individave kan\u00eb me ju paraqit\u00eb ato edhe kan\u00eb me na dal\u00eb n\u00eb pah. Nashta edhe personalisht mu disa q\u00eb me kalimin e koh\u00ebs jan\u00eb shtresu mir\u00eb n\u00eb harres\u00ebn tem\u00eb, edhe p\u00ebr vet faktin q\u00eb nuk me ka ra me shku te psikologu me fol p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb tem\u00eb, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb e vet\u00ebdijshme jam p\u00ebr k\u00ebto dy-tri efekte, mir\u00ebpo senet tjera jo.<\/p>\n

Pak \u00ebsht\u00eb nashta edhe m\u00ebnyra se si flasin n\u00eb Serbi, kur p.sh nj\u00eb serbofol\u00ebs flet shpejt\u00eb din me m\u00eb jep shum\u00eb siklet.<\/p>\n

Mu m\u00eb pelqen gjuha serbe, m\u00eb p\u00eblqejn\u00eb, m\u00eb p\u00eblqen p\u00ebr shembull fakti me shku n\u00eb Beograd, jan\u00eb shum\u00eb njer\u00ebz t\u00eb hapun, mendjendritur jan\u00eb shum\u00eb po menoj t\u00eb mir\u00ebpresin shum\u00eb mir\u00eb e krejt, mir\u00ebpo prap\u00eb kur e d\u00ebgjoj\u00eb dikon tu fol\u00eb shum\u00eb shpejt\u00eb edhe n\u00ebse 100% ma jep nj\u00eb ngroht\u00ebsi, prap\u00eb m\u00eb jep siklet edhe qaj sen.<\/p>\n

Po edhe tash tu e d\u00ebgju veten, po e v\u00ebrej q\u00eb nuk kam shum\u00eb efekte t\u00eb m\u00ebdhaja, ma shum\u00eb ato m\u00eb vin\u00eb gjat\u00eb festave edhe gjat\u00eb marsit sepse normalisht ato dit\u00eb jan\u00eb p\u00ebrkujtimet e familjes s\u00eb Jasharajve, ose kur flitet n\u00eb parlament p\u00ebr ata q\u00eb mungojn\u00eb qe 20 vite, etj, etj.<\/p>\n

K\u00ebshtuq\u00eb muj me than\u00eb q\u00eb mos kofsha n\u00ebn l\u00ebkur\u00ebn e tyre q\u00eb nuk i kan\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb dashtunit e vet edhe hala nuk i kan\u00eb gjet\u00eb.[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_column][\/vc_row]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

[vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text] [\/vc_column_text][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text] Rrefim nga Orgesa Arifi   OA:Periudha mas luft\u00ebs n\u00eb Prishtin\u00eb, n\u00eb Arb\u00ebri, lagjen ku kom jetu, p\u00ebr mu ka qen\u00eb shum\u00eb e lezetshme, jom\u00eb kan\u00eb e vog\u00ebl. Brengat qa kam mujt me i pas kan\u00eb qen\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00eb 5vje\u00e7ares, pak para luft\u00ebs qat\u00eb here. Brengat mas andej kan\u00eb fillu prej ikjes prej shpis\u00eb, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1229,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[22],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1232"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1232"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1232\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1270,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1232\/revisions\/1270"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1229"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1232"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1232"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/museumofrefugees-ks.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1232"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}